openupmyeyestothethingsunseen

2010-10-01T22:18:00.001+08:00

Thanks for all the memories(:

sweet ones, bitter ones, whatever it is, it's worth remembering of.
coming to the end of four years, there's a lot i can't put down but everything remains as it is(:
1Hurricane'2Hipster'3Icecream'4Imba.

Girls'Brigade9thcoy'Ivory'Soliane.
FIG'Big7'SAX-C.
Teachers.
A million thanks for making this part of my life an unforgettable, irreplaceable one.(:
To walk with a bunch of strangers until the end, until we had part as a family(:
It's always hard to say Goodbye, but it ain't difficult to say See You.
Going through thick and thin with 1H and 2H,
Going through ups and downs with 3I and 4I,
Going through joy and sorrow with GB9th.

This made my perfect life(:
everything we experienced, everything we had together, will be unchanged.
we don't know what lies ahead, but let's hold this moment as tight as possible.
All the Best to all who are taking Ns and Os.(:
God bless!

2010-08-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

Ever felt that life can be so wonderful?
long time since i last blogged, cos didnt had the feeling to do so.
anyway, let's wish people happy birthday(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHERIDINTAN(((((((:!(1st)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ONGWEIYANG(((((((:!(1st)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHUAJIAYI(((((((:!(10th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GOHWEILIN(((((((:!(11th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALISONONG(((((((:!(16th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINXUEYI(((((((:!(20th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA(((((((:!(20th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ONCHINLENG(((((((:!(23rd)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RACHELGOO(((((((:!(30th)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CRYSTALLIM(((((((:!(31st)
GOD BLESS:D

2010-07-18T12:55:00.001+08:00

Words for the School of Words.
when i want to blog, there's nothing flowing into my mind. haha! School had be alright, tests are filling the dates in my handbook. nonetheless, we went kbox last friday(: with crystal+xuanjun+yongyong+andy. sang the last song until i'm having sorethroat, cos we kept pressing the replay button haha! and crystal&yongyong&i ate Fish&Co. wahaha! delicious fish n chips! sinful! oh yeahyeah, mr heng started with 4I a thursday exercise thingy. we will be running every thurs!!!(: last week we did captain's ball instead. this week, we're gonna hit the road run route again! the bonding is cool(: and i'm glad 2.4km run is over! haha, didn't expect myself to reach the target. anyway i know this came really late, but my chi oral is done!(: listening compre is next tues(: Spa Skill 3 is driving all of us crazy. on the way back from church yesterday, sherry and i talked about something, that's really true and something we have to conquer someday. thank God for that dream, i won't take it as a nightmare.(: God's presence is your anchor in times of trial!(: goodbye, hope that my GB girls can achieve their target for tdy!!

Dear God, may school not be just a routine! Amen!
i pray to hear from my Papa God(:
i'm missing my dad badly!

2010-07-03T01:25:00.000+08:00

July started. School started.
(when you think that you're on track and you're great, sad to say, you're only at the beginning.)
Timetable was great this week, but there's going to be more lessons from next week onwards. shall not talk in details on what happened in school, shall just talk about the highlights. Bio lesson was absolutely great today(: credits to seahcheng haha. he made up names for the MCQ answers which made our day, including ms goh's. haha! it was hilarious. We changed our seating arrangement too, sitting in fours now. I'm with weiyang, yuanjie and jiali. Mdm Rozi has left our school, and Mrs Baljit is taking over her as our ss teacher. I'm sure 4I is going to miss her a lot. in fact, we had started to miss her. First week of school, but i feel like i'm brain-drained. haha. Olvl MT Oral has kicked off. Ours is next wednesday, nervous! but shall stay calm!! All the best to everyone((((: it's best to diversify. Globalisation isn't that bad, but thinking of the loss of local culture. It's true. I'm going back to GB tmr again((((: hahaha, with the rest of the sec4s! okay, goodbye! Take care and God bless:D

sometimes, it isn't because i had forgotten, just that i chose not to remember. it's a mental lock, a mental box, that i had hidden memories in there. i may or may not open it.
let's just take it as you just needed a boat to cross the river, now you have reached, you don't need me anymore(: but if you want to get back to where you belonged, i'll be here.

it's to have patience and the Love of God.
the Fruits of the Spirit((((:

2010-06-22T03:11:00.001+08:00

YOOs(((:

Impartation.
Faith & Boldness.
Growing in Christ.
Worship Leader.
Ability to see angels.
Pool of Joy.
(:
Thanks Alina and Veron(((:
God of wonders!(:

cos' i stopped at the wrong place?

2010-06-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

Because things are never going to be the same.
the day you left.
the day you said.
the day you hurt.
the day you show.
the day you type.
the day you work.
i long for everything to return. it's not going to happen.
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From drama: a packet of rocks can be used to build up a wall or a bridge. You choose.
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God, it hurts, a lot. I can't do anything with my own strength. I need You.
Hungry, i come to You, for i know you satisfy.
i'm falling on my knees, offering all of me.
Jesus You're all that i'm living for.
Thank God for everything, no matter what the circumstances i'm in(:
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOYJOY! GREATSCHOOLMATE+CHURCHFRIEND(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIMYICHIN! GREATSCHOOLMATEFROMYOUNG(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SAMANTHAWONG! OURDEARESTCELLLEADER(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MICHELLETAN! SWEETGBGIRL(:

i so so so so want to watch Karate Kid): but xuanjun said she broke.
LOL.
6 more days.
i know i'm slow, but i'm addicted to xia yi zhan xing fu<3 haha! xiaoxiaobing is so cuteeee(: and it's really touching, i cried at a few parts.
alright goodbye(:

2010-06-12T12:33:00.001+08:00

Let's start from last saturday!
050610(:
Went to school to do workkkk(: awesome! thanks to "mum" who accompanied me all the way hahaha! 3.30-8.30: Church service! whee.
060610(:
10.30-12.30;1.30-4: Church Service+Chi Service! and went for GB bbq with rachel and seemin! had a great laugh at their NCO retreat!(: i miss my girls!
070610(:
Second week and last week of lessons started. But we had seminars@One Marina Boulevard. 0830-1000: E.Lit Seminar. and trained down to Wisma for lunch and walked around(: 1400-1700: Eng Seminar. haha, many were falling asleep at that point of time! after that, had Kushinbo with yongyong, crystal, kohsiong, jiyu, arnold, daniel, weiting, kenneth.(: Ate a lot. And we met Brandon, a kid. haha.(: Wonderful time spent with all of them(((:
080610(:
0800-1045: Robotics! haha, kinda interesting to solve the mystery. but E.lit students left halfway. 1200-1330: E.Lit Seminar@same place.
090610(:
Had our SS mock o level test!
100610(:
4H and 4I had a combined class for Math, but split into two bands. and each band had groups. anyway was in the same group as leonard, alison and brigitte. did trigo intensive.(:
110610(:
Chem, going through of test. Phy, did datalogger experiment with yongyong! mr chng was so funny. Math lesson had EM and AM trigo tests.
and that's the end of the two weeks! so fast. time to concentrate on holiday assignments+revision!(:
After school, went Clarke Quay with xuanjun! Took LOTS of pics, i mean it. haha, @facebook. we just keep snapping haha. and went to 313 to meet Crystal+Diyanah+Nadia(:! shopping! anyway met a lot of Westwoodiansss. haha! and snap somemore photos and homed!
Really sad that "mum" have to go overseas): faster come backkkk. Alright hope she's alright at wherever she is(:
my life isn't that great at the moment, due to many events.

going for cell+church soonnnnn. Excited!(: i'm going to craft out my schedule soon. goodbye!

there is no one else for me, none but Jesus(:

2010-06-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

(i deleted.)
YOURSELF.

2010-06-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

I agree to a large extent that Humans Are Complex Creatures. maybe not to the "creatures" but i'm sure we are complex. We have different perspectives about things, no one has the same exact thinking as you always. we are sometimes crafty, sometimes innocent. We think constantly about unknown things. There's too many things going on in our bodies. We'll take forever to understand ourselves or others.
But it can be forever so amazing that God understands us fully and He had created us(: great isn't it? you'll probably never find another greatest invention besides us, humans.
I love going to school. How many of you would look at those tags along the walkway to the quadrangle? The ones that hangs on the shelter from the back gate. I would, it just reminds me of those values and the purpose of putting them there. Many would forgo the presence of them. They won't put that without any purpose right? Pondering about the question: "Whose name is Westwood?"
Anyway, like to thank andy for the wonderful hospitality(: Went to his house in the evening to watch moviessss(: and FB-ing.
School had be alright, i supposed. Filled with 2hours straight lessons.
I somehow can't wait for morning to come.(:
Lord, consume me from the inside out(:

2010-06-02T22:27:00.003+08:00

THUMBS UP FOR SHREK FOREVER AFTER 3D!!!!!!!!!(:

(watched with limyongyong,limxuanjun and jennygoh!)

touching storyline.

Treasure what you have now! for you never know when it will be taken away from you.

very long since i last watched a 3D movie. And this movie made it worthwhile to spend my time in the cinema!

don't ask me why i'm typing in big font.

what's yours is yours(someone told me so.)
what's not mine, i shall let it go(i replied.)
thanks.

God is good all the time(:

2010-05-31T22:31:00.001+08:00

Chinese O level Paper 1&2 done!(:
let's focus on Oral now, and spend time digging our ears for listening compre. lol, i'm kidding. but oral is indeed a vital component to pull my results up. Jiayou, people!(:
went to eat pepper lunch with xuanjun, crystal, kohsiong, weiting, leonard and xunqiang after our paper. haha xunqiang can be a really funny guy. walked around jp after that, while the guys went home. i want to go outttttttttttt, as in out of this area haha.
oh going to watch Shrek with yongyong,xuanjun and jenny on wednesday(((:
There's school+Eng with mdm saha+Tuition tomorrow!

cos i understood too much within days.

To love You from the inside out, Lord.(:

2010-05-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

Imperfection.For a moment, Blue and White.

The next, black prevails.

Blue and White turned back facing you.

They walked out of your life, living you with Black.

The White piece of paper is getting old.

Age don't wait, it becomes Yellow.

Black and White are loggerheads.

But for now, Black, you are winning.

Cos i'm not going to try anymore.

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR TOMORROW'S O LEVEL MOTHER TONGUE PAPER!!!!!!!!
GOD WILL MAKE A WAY WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY(:

2010-05-29T12:18:00.001+08:00

2 more days!!!!!

蔡思蕊，加油！
On thursday, some of us stayed in school until 8+pm for chinese, what a fruitful day though(:
love the bio lesson with ms goh haha, great revision+kept joking.
went to school yesterday for chinese again with jenny(: we had the whole school to ourselves hahaha.
chinese intensive file is so thick! haha, didn't know we did so much within two weeks.
still have one more paper not completed, going to do it today.
going back to school tmr for chinese too(:
realised something, something i never thought i would and wished i didn't knew.
but face the fact, i know all along that what i knew was known.
afterall, there's a gap until someone leaves, you'll be back.
heard from a drama: Guys lie to protect themselves from getting hurt, Girls lie to protect others from getting hurt. true? lol.
church later(((: and studying with sherry wong lin.
goodbye!

HEY, SHIA YUAN IS THE CRAZY BOYYYYYY!

Lead me to the cross, where Your love poured out(:

2010-05-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

5 more days to O level Chinese Paper.
Despite the fact above, crystal+yongyong+qiuyun+jenny+me went for a swim today. Refreshing i must say.
oh yah, and we had OCU tdy(: we were much efficient, haha.
will kinda miss Chinese Intensive!
Down with a flu for these few days! Feel as though my nose is going to drop anytime.
Blurry vision now, cos of the chlorine i guess.
Having mixed feelings now.
Don't want to elaborate.
Human nature maybe, or.
I'm being random.
Lost.
Just take me to somewhere else.
When the going gets tough, i'm going to be even tougher.
I want to study, eyes eyes eyes, let me study alright?
Don't try to decipher my thoughts, cos i'm not typing fully.
I have split personality, hahahahahaha.
You think so?
Maybe.
Still thinking about it, why oh why.
Completely.
I just feel it's great to have friends around.
Be it true or fake. actually there are no fake friends.
cos they tried. at least they did.
Breaking free.
Feel so dumb.
I know, but can't.
Unexpected, secret, graduation day.
P, E, A, C, E, L, C, S, B.

The greatest day in history, was the day You died for us, and rose again(:

2010-05-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

Life is fragile, Death is unpredictable,
Love is everlasting, Hate is superficial.
Memories kept flashing through my mind continuously.
What if one day, my dad comes back saying i'm not dead...
What if he would come hugging me again...
What if i hear his slow voice saying i love you...
What if...
What if...
I won't know how to react, i'm sure.

Hope you're really alright...
it's really worrying, cos i know how much it hurts, how much it won't help if someone ask you to be strong when you don't know how to, how much it feels for you to be lonely, how much it feels like your world has broken up into many different parts and yet not going to form back, how much it feels to be so stupid that you have to force out a smile, how much it feels when you know that person is in a better place and yet you are still sad.......
Take care, we will be here for you(:

Love talking to chuajiayi! hahaha. she knows how to comfort and at the same time, flood you with her complains eh? hahahaha!

Chinese intensive had started, it's going to be a very important period. The first day, we already had 6papers "thrown" at us. it isn't that bad afterall, although we did 6 papers, i don't feel tired and even wanted to do more. Second day, did 3 papers+4 papers as homework. alright, after lunch yesterday, xuanjun and crystal came to my house. guess what...three of us fell asleep on my sofa hahaha! until yongyong called, cos we said we wanted to go swimming. in the end we still did! yongyong came, and xuanjun went home. so the three of us left went swimming(: taught yongyong the right method of swimming, was so funnyyyyy! chat with them too(: then swam laps! love the feeling of water gushing past.
alright, goodbye(: churchhhh later!!

meeting God face-to-face would be a wonderful feeling(:

2010-05-16T21:00:00.001+08:00

MY DEAREST SEC4s AND 5s HAVE PASSED OUT(:

THE AWESOME-ST GB9THCOY!(:<333

hohoho, had our farewell party yesterday(: i'm so going to miss all of them, sec1s-5s!!!! thanks to all for planning this farewell party and for those who made this party a successful one(: i love all of you to the deepest eepest epest of my heart(: this will definitely not be the end yeah! my dear juniors, bring GB to higher heights alright!<3 thanks for being that wonderful family(:

anything just sms me alright!

2010-05-15T04:34:00.000+08:00

END OF MYE((((:
had been going out like mad people after coping ourselves at home for about 2weeks. probably getting our results next week and it's time to study again. wednesday after our Bio ppr2, went to jp with peisee,ziqian and hwaxiang to get our things. then went to KBOX with yongyong, crystal, xuanjun and qiuyun to sing our hearts out. we are fortunate enough to hear xuanjun sing eh? hahaha.
Thursday had oral and helped hkk calculate math marks, it was so funny! haha, met yong2,crystal and xuanjun after their oral and after i calculated the marks. went to jp with them+kohsiong and weiting to get qiuyun's photos developed. ate at pepper lunch!
Friday went to Kidz Amaze to celebrate qiuyun's birthday, can't believe it! we are so childish hahahahaaaa. had fun though! hmm before that, we had lunch at Benten cafe, delicious!!! and filling. the ice-cream is nice! haha. then went to Jurong Safra to playyyyy! and xuanjun lost 6 patches of skin and i lost one hahaha because of the 18.5m slide. we met a kid named edmund(: such an adorable boy+he looks like a korean haha! crystal is in love with him. anyway played like catching, but it a stupid way! we pulled each other, grab each other's bags, LOL! simply hilarious. played at the balls area, lol, kept throwing at each other. edmund threw the hard ones on us! and we have no choice but to throw the soft one at him haha. headed down to dhoby ghaut for my dental. and then to chinatown people's park to get yongyong's swimming costume. and Homed! legs were so suan! and i was so drained out then i slept on the sofa. okay, goodbye!(:
Farewell party in a few hours time(:
&sunday going to sentosa, aiyoooooooooo, too much of playing!

Thank God for all the lovely people in my life((((:
esp.chuajiayi right??? hahahaha, she's crazy but worth it to be crazy with her!

Thank You for the cross((((:

2010-05-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Breaking down is hardly an option now.
One week of exams had passed by, pretty fast, isn't it?
I had a whole load of sleeping yesterday(: FINALLY.
5 more papers+Eng oral left!!!! it's only MYE, can't imagine o levels. i'm probably getting the marks i don't wish to get for this MYE.
anyway yesterday after 3 successive papers, only with short breaks, i had a nice lunch at kopitiam with crystal,xuanjun and yongyong(: talked a lot and laughed a lot. went to xuanjun's house to get tortured by honghong! but mostly it was yongyong who murdered him. he's our joy and i must say, frustration haha! went to the playground+art park. long time since we climbed those slides. and went to xuanjun's house to watch tv until 8+. and homedddd.
Alright, goodbye, go study already.(:

it's You and You only, who allow all of us to live on earth, and to keep us blameless until You return.(:

2010-05-02T04:46:00.002+08:00

Rotated sleeping hours. when i'm supposed to be sleeping, i'm wide awake, like now. it's my way of studying. "The Best preparation for tomorrow is doing your best today" MYE is next week, and i'm still not done for all subjects! there's still physics, i gotta be interested in it! as much as you don't like the competition in results, me too. "Effective motivation is encouragement plus correction". They do their job, while we do our part. They set goals, while we often fail to meet their expectations. They give us practices/tests/nags, while we often lament and show them our charcoal face. but they are willing to go through everything with us and bring us to higher heights and stretch us to our fullest potential. THEY are TEACHERS. This week had been rushing for mye with teachers. feel the tension and the beat of the exams. Paper 1 for both languages are over, don't even know what i'm writing for chinese. when you lose what you are driving at, you get out of point. oral and paper 3 for chinese is also over. it's weird talking to miss chua in mandarin. concentrating on paper 2 now. alright, back to studying.(:

time to time, my mind switches back.

the best comfort i have ever gotten is from God(:

once again,
You've open my eyes to the wonders anew,
You've captured my heart with this love
cos' nothing is as beatiful as you.(:

2010-04-25T01:45:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOHSIONG and GUORUI(((((:!

Yesterday went to school with crystal! reached at exactly 8am sharp for amath lesson. haha! went through binomial thm+trigo(: then stayed in school till 1pm to do homework+meet teachers+crapping with xuanjun and kohsiong. was in 1h most of the time talking to mr heng. really childish hahaha. crystal and jiayi came to find us after their SC. met zhangyi and went to kenny's to continue with our work.
Homed and Church(: felt renewed again! Pastor Peter continued with his previous sermon on the usage of Tongue. met alison and joy after service for dinner(: chat a lot about random topics! joy's parents sent us to dover and trained back with alison. chat somemore. wonder why we can talk so much! haha! okay continue with my work(:

why must things keep changing! argh, i'm tired of it, really.

Jesus is the bridge between God and us(:
Death is beaten;You have set me free.

2010-04-23T23:16:00.001+08:00

WW10THYEARANNIVERSARY!

April 14-HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD and JIEXIN(((((:!
April 15-HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANNI(((((:! i think i will fail for the Heredity test!
April 17-HAPPY BIRTHDAY WESTWOOD(((((:! last FD performance, POC and carnival!(: was kinda like a fun-filled day!+dinner at Old Town White Coffee
April 18-Dad's death anniversary.&swimming and i can't believe i actually went to qian hu fish farm and caught some fishes home+jiayi gave me a second birthday gift, mcdonald meal, which made me ate McChicken burger for the very first time!
April 19-HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLEN(((((:! reported to school by 9am(:
April 20-had extra eng lessons with most of the girls, was beneficial and hilarious!
April 21-can't remember much? oh had extra eng lessons again.
April 22-a day filled with tests. glad that i passed the vectors test. think it's unfair to us though.
April 23-ate at pepper lunch with xuanjun and crystal(:! chi lesson was quite funny! went jogging, very very very sorry to someone. and thank you, cjy.
Tomorrow's farewell party is being rescheduled, having mixed feelings about it. but we still have to pass out somehow. 15th May really seems long, esp. with all the tests lined up in front of it. feeling really stressed now to the extent that i'm in no mood to study. it's an irony. alright but i'm really glad to go for extra am lessons tmr, cos he goes slower and he's going through sec3 topics(: okay goodbye, shall do my work now.(:

Father's love:
He who rather break a bone than let his child suffer a cut.

God's dynamic loveeee(:

2010-04-13T03:22:00.000+08:00

i'm so going to suffer soon. irregular sleeping times. can be real tired but just don't want to sleep.

the wonders of Your creation(:
(but why antsssss!!!)

2010-04-11T13:30:00.002+08:00

GB9thcoy♥!

it's losing something that had always been vital, more than a weekly routine, more than just the points you get, more than just a CCA. i never once saw a cca that's so bonded until the day i stepped into this room filled with enthusiastic people. i'm glad i chose the Girls' Brigade as my first choice. 9thcoy, this is a family, i never wanted to lose, but two more weeks, we have to leave anyway. had our last GB parade yesterday. my juniors are wayyy too adorable and the sec4s are wayyy too caring. haha. i shall save everything that i want to say on the 24th of april, a day the sec4s will never ever forget(: the theme: Superstar. hard to think of.

open the eyes of my heart Lord.(:

2010-04-10T03:05:00.000+08:00

hey! don't know why i'm awake at such a hour, not sleeping tonight. going to school with hwaxiang at 7am later(: approx.4hours. i will make myself willing to go for amath lesson.
this week was really busy, with many rehearsals and tests. tuesday's rev-up was probably one of the most funniest yet most horrible one. dramatic situation.
this was what had happened...
-Jiexin did something(forgot what)
-I turned behind and said "huh?"
-didn't see the puddle of water in front, and so...SLIPPED AND FELL.
-it didn't just end here.
-jiexin trip over my leg and also slide and fell on me.
lol! kept laughing non-stop, crystal told me she didn't know whether to react by laughing or be shocked. wednesday PE played captain's ball with 4H. i fell on the same knee again, dumb right? Right. anyway the girls owe 4H girls pumpings, we didn't do that day, for some reasons.
let's skip to today. assembly was different tdy, the girls were in the parade square and the guys were in the hall. the girls had some discipline talk by mdm ong in the morning, about our attire and how we carry ourselves to others. anyway we can't stop people from harbouring those thoughts... true, it will lessen if we adhere to the rules. after school had phy revision lesson(: followed on by POP rehearsal. the GB colours is so so so so heavy. when the wind blows, the pain is really unbearable. but i think weilin is suffering more, she's so so so so skinny! nevermind, just bear with it for two or three more days(: JIAYOU to all(: played and chat with weilin and elaine after our rehearsal, while waiting for our friends. weilin kept losing hahahahaaaaa! was so funny! enjoyed the time spent with them(: ate my dinner at kopitiam with xuanjun, qiuyun and yongyong. had lots of fun talking to them too! attempted to play like last time in jp but our bags were too heavy and we just ate our dinner.
anyway all of us in mr chiam's chinese class changed to different classes. jiali, germane, jenny and i went to miss lim's class in 4E, mixed with 4F and G students. temporary or permanent? hmm, wait until mr chiam comes back and see how.

this is the moment i feel like giving up but i just got to hang on.
It's the struggles in life that pulls you up at a certain point.
things happened at the most unexpected time.
But...God knows, He knows our every single thought(:

2010-04-04T14:02:00.000+08:00

FURIOUS LOVE!

Friday:
-wanted to study but had an awesome time out and in.
-convinced that i must have some self-discipline
-Lunch with my "mum", as claimed by some westwoodian haha.
-mos burger's milktea is nice(: craving for more!
-went back home, xuanjun came to my house.
-Re-watch Hachiko, didn't cry this time. But it's still touching!
-crazy pictures of xuanjun.(on fb)
-soon after she went home, jiayi called.
-Jogging@stadium with her.(:
-felt relaxed
-Dinner@jp.
-studied.

Yesterday:
-Eng filing with mdm saha and xuanjun.
-don't know why we went so early.
-watched the fancy drill
-back for bio
-hilarious time!!!!! esp.with yongyong
-supposedly lunch with "mum" but didnt have appetite! sorry.
-she bought lunch back for me though, it's delicious hahaha!
-i noticed i eat things that i dont with her. (forced to=X, haha kidding)
-chit-chat session with krystal and diyanah
-met alison at around 4.30pm
-headed to church
-ushering! while alison was with joy and they went to find keryn.
-did main door with three awesome people(:
-this time we gave out bookmarks
-service was different today, we had a movie screening, we gave bookmarks because of this event. and we have to get tickets to come in(: it's a little messy yesterday!
-worship (love the songs!), speech by senior pastor derek, offering, debrief(:
-ran in to watch the movie!
-FURIOUS LOVE is the title(:
-about healing, the dark realms, and of course God's love(:
-it's an eye opener for me, touched by God's love, i didn't know a lot until yesterday. it sure is daunting, but face-to-face, we are fighting all these. spiritual war... believing is not just a ticket out of hell but it's God's love that spreads through Jesus and through us(:
-healing don't happen because of how we feel, but it's because God loves.
-there's many things i want to say, but i can't put it into words.
-just remember, God loves, you just have to spread God's love(:
-Dinner with sherry, samantha wong, alison, keryn and joy(:
-homed with alison and keryn
-had a nice chat with the both of them.
-hope they brought something meaningful home(:
-studied

seems that my days are ending with studies. yes, i'm going to work hard, harder than i thought i would. i don't want to be a disappointment. i'm not telling anyone about my goals. giving up a lot of things slowly for studies. someone asked about cca versus studies, honestly, it's hard to choose. but after april, i don't have to choose? is that so... i'm giving up something vital too, but slowly, i won't make it obvious.
anyway, it's april this month, it's been 2 years, i will never forget. and i've been hit by a fear constantly. i don't want to not be there when things happened.

the Love of God will bring me through. and bring you through. bring us through.

2010-04-02T01:21:00.001+08:00

GOOD FRIDAY!
thank you for the cross(:

A BREAKKKKKKKKKK.
Some of us went down to blk 276D for the preparation of sunday's CIP. painted the 5 walls white(: it was fun haha, and tiring. Sunday was a day filled with a sense of achievement(: did CIP with 4I and 4H. Vivo>walkathon>Blk276D! changed into the red HAVE A BREAK GET HANDS ON tee! at least it's comfortable. took lots of pics and joked with the people in front and the our two teachers. waited for the even to be launched. it was kinda longgg. we even had a record breaking thingy, 658 people in the "palm". then we started walking! took pictures on the way with many people. haha. then we got back to vivo. bused back to school area. and started sketching our drawings. my group, group 2! took the outer wall(: drew and then went for our lunch break. afterwhich, we started painting! spent one hour painting the fence with leslie. so tiring! then helped the rest in painting the other parts of the wall. used hand instead. was really busy. satisfied with the result((((: well done people! and many thanks to those in group 1 who had came to help us too! took group photos! had a great time of joking with all of them. different talents rising up.(: and then dinner with crystal,xuanjun,diyanah and nadia. chat a lot!
(posting as of thursday 1/4/2010)
Monday, everyone was exhausted. had sleeping breaks(: skip skip, yesterday did sit-ups, inclined pull ups and standing broad jump during PE. suffering from aches now! the whole body, and i have no idea why my neck hurts the most. had FD rehearsal after school for ten year anniversary and went to see my GB girls. Today, chinese lesson was really funny, on oral. haha, i love the people around me! SS test was mind-wrecking! i can't forget the word "Byzantine"! heard the church bell tdy! alright, tmr maybe going out(: and studyingggg! okay goodbye(: today's a good day!

Random: mr heng is getting more and more childish!

Amazing Grace, a song that never fails to pick me up!

2010-03-26T23:19:00.001+08:00

i'm very tired now.
had our last cross country in our secondary life today(: had school as usual until 11.30am. took individual shots, nice pictures! had a great laugh over them. headed down to jp and ate our lunch, met jiayi they all. Thanks Jiayi and chinleng for the presents(((: haha, Jiayi, i will try to wear the watch more often! and no wonder chinleng asked me what's my fav.cartoon character during lit. speaking of lit, we had the most fun-filled lesson tdy(: 5 words: the Battle of the Sexes. haha! okay then after lunch, took mrt to chinese garden. found the place to assemble. took lots of pics while waiting for the event to start. when the lower sec boys went out to run, it started to rain heavily. they came back within 4minutes. haha, ms fong said new record. ms fong and ms mazuki kept joking. then we played the bombing game with the whole school. took photos again. then the rain stopped. started all events again. upper sec girls race was the last category. took off!(: i really can't run today haha, but at least i got a 30. congrats to all those in top20(: then took more photos. back to boonlay with yong2 they all+ Jiayi they all. ate pepper lunch with yong2, kohsiong, krystal, arnold and jonathan.(: then homeddddd. will post the pictures soon(: have to study for the pbb test. goodbye!(:

phy test, i can tell you i will really fail, cos i did not believe in my answers and i went to change everything.
SPA tests, was difficult. esp.chemistry.

withstand all difficulties, for the Lord is here for you(:

2010-03-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

WestWood Concert Band's concert tonight was AWESOME!(:
Potpourri was really proudly presented by WWCB.
didn't regret going. they played 10songs as a whole band and also as sections.
actually, they played another song, i love the last song!
the way they coordinated was super cool and it's hard to play and do the moves at the same time. nice(:
took photos with the help of yongyong, rachel and jenny.
will upload soon(:
weiyang was handsome when he played the saxophone hahaha!
and Jiayi, yeah you were pretty too okay! HAHA.
yeah(:

2010-03-17T15:44:00.001+08:00

I'm seriously bored, that's why I'm here.

Believing is Learning.

If you say you can, who can say you can't.

hey, the person that i sms at 6+am today haha, you can do it alright, rise up and conquer all the setbacks and work for what you want. you can't break down, you know it. everyone is rooting for you including the person who you think isnt.(:

Mark, get well soon(: everyone is praying for a miracle.
he brought joy fun laughter to everyone in church, now he is painstakingly in the hospital.
During ushering last saturday, Brenda told me "I miss Mark, he used to be jumping like crazy in front."
wake up wake up, you're a warrior in Christ!

i went swimming today, 20 laps. i need a break that's why i went. i won't say i'm busy cos in fact i have plenty of time in my hands, it's a matter how i use it. There's chem spa tomorrow, more prepared? i don't know. i really hope for a better one, hope my mind wouldnt blank out. was looking at some pictures in facebook, i miss miss tay and miss justina goh. ms goh's baby is cute(: haha, her big eyes. let's detach from the virtual world, it's unreal, let's do some work, goodbye.

i don't have to see it to believe it, God You're real(:

2010-03-16T16:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIM YI CHANG!!!!(((((:(the boy whose birthday is after mine haha)

THANK YOU NOTE:
RACHELSEEMINSHERIDINJOEY-
for the cards piled up together(((:+cushion+bb cover with my name haha!
DANIEL-
for something that i had thought of buying(((:
PEISEEZIQIANHWAXIANGJENNYDAMARIS-
for all the things that's GREEN!(((:
SHUYUN-
for the notebook!(((:
MCN-
for the dinner(((: hehe.
KRYSTALXUANJUNJIAYIMSNGMRHENGCHINLENG
WEIYANGYICHINSEAHCHENGYONGYONGYANGYI
KOHSIONGHONGHONG-
for the awesome BIG card!!+pictures hahaha. funny faces.
SMSES-(no particular order)
Jiayi(she sent me 16 "happy bday, abigail chua!" so touched!), yongjie, daniel, eileen, sathish, alison, longze, yannni, tzehearn, esther, vanessakoh, joy, siangyee, yiyialice, brigitte, lihua, huishi, wanni, dawn, rachel, seemin, evangeline, hwaxiang, peisee, damaris, shuyun, sheena, vivian, joey, minhui, kianyew, yangyi, xuanjun, krystal, huaiqian, mcn, rongfan(((:

4Imba+Lit students-

for the birthday song today and yesterday respectively(((:
MUM-
for sunday's dinner(((:!
& on FACEBOOK+in SCHOOL+MSN
&&GOD((((:
for creating me and blessing me with everyone and everything(((:
ABIGAIL IS SIXTEEN, WAHAHAHA.

2010-03-14T12:56:00.001+08:00

GB enrolment rehearsal yesterday(: i'm excited to receive the 3rd year service award hahaha, finally not a circle. well i'm more interested in knowing who is the crystal girl this year. haha. alright, in the morning helped the sec1s to get dressed. they are all so adorable(: took the 9thcoy contingent for parade, meaning sec1s and 2s, all of them kept making rachel and i laugh. plus two naughty ones to kill our energy. sheena! why you look so sad! cheer up dear girl(: took pictures with the 3 kukus. hahaha. i must say i love those pictures(: lunch with them too, ate mac and joked about things. went home and went for church.
Usher duty, did main door with brenda, offering and counting with brenda. haha, trixia likes to pair us up, always. Sermon was about the 7 points(: the last point is God is good, all the time. we like to think complicated but it all comes down to just a simple phrase "God is good."(:
lost my appetite, didnt eat dinner for two days. tdy wont be the third though, eating with family(:
before i forget, Thanks Goh WEI LIN(Wing) for sending me the first birthday wish this year on thurs hahaha, she's really funny.

You're broken on the altar of love, just to pour that love on us(:
we are forgiven.
You're worthy of all our praise
You're beautiful and i'll lift up my hands and sing.(:

2010-03-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRIGITTE!(6th)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHERRY!(7th)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SAMANTHA KANG!(11th)

Yes, One last chance on one special day.
school had been alright, not packed with tests, but packed with practicals.
it's great to practise and at the same time talk to crystal.
Yesterday, xuanjun and i did something really stupid! it's the bus driver's fault (claimed by xuanjun). she and her rubbish to be thrown... haha.
Tdy's amath test, i can just say I'M DUMB. i freaking know how to do, but i stoned! i mean it, STONED! i think 6marks flew away. Had PE with 4H, played captains' ball. it was a funny game(:
i feel very detached from my com haha, dont feel like onlining actually. some HUHU or some 8-legged freak made me online. HAHA.
Mum scolded me for getting such chinese grades, one C in my report card, argh. Pushing harder for all subjects! Almost there.
"Terrified" is a nice song(:

Green means correction, it gives people a chance to be forgiven.

Freely You gave Your life for us(:

2010-03-06T11:57:00.002+08:00

i love them((((:

i look so short in the picture above hahaha.

so many people around feeling sad.

cheer upppppppppppppppp, way uppppppppppppppppp!

CJY, you can do it yeah, don't think about those troubles(:
&MCN, no matter what, we are here for you(:

&also AOYL, everything will be alright(:
&DACSR, what's with you, go and help others(:
Dear God, give us the strength we need(:!

2010-03-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

seems long since i last blogged.
RUN WITH ME! Drill camp(26th-28thFeb), sec4s last GB camp):
i shall not blog every single detail.
but i very much want to thank these people.
Hwaxiang, thanks for being such a hilarious sleeping partner!! hahaha, i still remember what happened okay!
Seniors, thanks for planning this camp and being strict and yet kind in the whole camp.
Mdms, thanks for ensuring that we are alright.
Soliane, thanks for being that wonderful squad, being so enthu about everything and entertaining me during meal times.
Sec4s, thanks for making these 4 years a great one, i wont forget how we managed to handle all the problems and the fun we had. and Sour Apple shall just be forgotten alright...
i just want to say, i love all of you, GB girls. i don't say it often, i don't really show, i usually seem so cruel! but every single time i scold you all, there's something hitting my heart real hard, worries that you will be hurt, worries that you will be angry. i know i'm not a good leader, not much of a good role model too. but i tried my best, i tried my best to hold this company together. i wasnt prepared to take this role, i wasnt sure how to lead all of you, i dont know how to handle all of you. a big THANK YOU to all of you!(: all of you are one big part of my life that i will never be able to forget.
Thanks to those who wrote encouragement notes to me(: kept re-reading them, some anonymous writers too haha.

school had been alright, i've been running away from some problems though...didnt tell anyone about it... oh and kohsiong is now sitting beside me, the motivation hahaha(: had been talking crap with him and learning from him. ss test tdy was, i know you know everybody know, argh. lol!

feel so helpless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God, if you would let the roots be formed, i will grow the tree(:

2010-02-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

COMMON TEST.

how common can it get, very.

Just realised we had already cleared two common tests. there's amath, eng tomorrow.
Tues: Phy
Wed: Emath
Thurs: SS
Fri: Lit
glad that phy is only testing on two topics, but still have to work double hard. i won't be blogging for a week! After school on friday will be having GB drill camp. yeah and of course it's ct week, so no switching on of computer. GB yesterday, normal programme except an additional thing for drill camp and some arrangement.
Lunch after that with ziqian and peisee.
Church was next. Had ushering duty, lisa was with me yesterday. Service was awesome(: Sermon was preached in a different way by Pastor Delcha. He's really cool and he kept saying it's awesome to be a black. he talked about who we are and also he put in many hilarious examples. he talked about many things, many issues based on Luke 8:40. and he started giving prophesy to many people.(: altar call, responded, it's really great to surrender everything to God and accepting His love that had been not sprinkle but vastly pouring down onto us!
Dinner with sherry, had a great, long chat with her.
got to study(: goodbye.

it's the love of God that pulls me through.

2010-02-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

Tuesday: Last day of visitation, went to my bro's godma's house with second bro and mum. there's a dog named Terry(: SO CUTE! i believe in love at first sight (for dogs)! HAHAHA! he kept licking me and jumping up and down.(: alright then went to bukit timah and eat!
Wednesday: Start of school, nothing much about today? but there was an amath retest. it was much easier or probably my mind was working.
Thursday: two common tests, bio was leaving me with a disappointment. but chem i was just glad or more than that!! you could really see everyone smiling widely! it's like removing the rock on you, the two tests are finally over. after school, the whole of sec4s&5s lao yusheng!(: haha, it was enjoyable! i remembered, in the past, we did mooncakes together haha.
Today: PE, injured my back. lol! it still hurts. Skip skip. Had gb after school, did drills, i love the bangings(: and i must say, i love doing drills! haha.had a good laugh with rachel too! then stayed back to watch the fancy drill and to accompany my juniors+xueyi and to wait for that slow slow slow snail to finish. ate dinner at JP's Lai Lai something something, forgot what's the name. haha! the one with the cow on the signboard. somebody treat me(: hahaha, thanks! owe you one! then it was raining heavily, wanted to run across the road but left feet cramp! then walkkkk. went home left leg cramp, lol! what's wrong! alright, tmr there's GB, haha, goodbye(:

if only i can post those emoticons here! that character is so cute!(:

getting to know more and more about Jesus, it's a great thing(:

2010-02-16T01:43:00.001+08:00

woohoo,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, HUISHI(14TH)!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, PRISCILLIA(15TH)!

great seniors(:

what's great about cny is not the food(it just makes people gain weight),
it's about coming together, sitting around the table to eat(then you won't think you're gaining weight).
went to two houses on the third day of lny, mum's student's house and mum's second bro's house. we played wii at fufu's house. my brothers and i started playing first while the rest havent come. so funny! coordination skills fail for the first round we played. then we became better. the rest came and played bowling. aunt won in the end haha. then we played many of the sports games, plus the swordplay was the hit! haha, laughed non-stop cos of the actions and reactions. 3 seconds slow! haha! then went off at around 7+ for dinner at yewtee point with mum's youngest sis' family, which is the family we are closest with.ate at the hongkong cafe. i ate baked spaghetti and drank iced milk tea!(: then played my bro's iphone games. had been spamming ourselves with iphone games haha, super funny when we want to beat each other's highscores, anyway we are building finger and arm muscles!!!
haha yeah and reached home at around 10+pm. not going anywhere tdy(16th) i guess! finally a day to study like crazy. goodbye(:

it just hurts when you know someone is leaving and yet you can't say, you can't do anything, you just wait and see if that decision is final.

i'm going to stay awake until 3+am, or later. for my goals!

United State of pop Mash-Up.(:

may God bless me/you and keep me/you(:

2010-02-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

CNY(:

went to three places today. paternal grandma's house, god-aunt's house, maternal grandfather's house(:
God bless this festival(:

2010-02-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR AND VALENTINE'S DAY!!

(in advanced though)

I'm back to blog. haha. Let me just blog on CNY celebration in school, which was held on friday. Normal lessons in the morning. PE is now changed to friday so we are having the same time slot as 4H instead of 4G.chi with zhangyi instead for three days. and i remembered how beeping(?) sing cai shen dao in eng hahaha! fortune god come! hahaha! can't forget that. then CNY celebrations. this year it's different. 5A and 5B did the performance. Lion dance+the skit. the skit was so hilarious!!! esp.the Nobody part and the two boys talking to the mum. hahaha. thanks to them, our last CNY in westwood was great(: afterwhich, kryst,xuanjun and i went to JP. then qiuyun came. ate pepperlunch! had a great time laughing! our silly actions, can't stand it! xuanjun laughed till she bang the wall. and once you put the four of us together, you expect nothing but stupid acts. guess what. 3 of us left xuanjun behind and we rannnnnnn and hide. then she found us. then we ran again. we end up playing hide and seek+catching. so fun!!! nice workout after lunch. hahaha! we can be so childish at times. lol!!! then rested, we were so tired. went home to prepare for church!(:
Church CNY service, sat on the floor cos it was a combine service.(: a testimony by a professional gambler who went bankrupt, met a person who shared about Christ in the prison, and then gave his life to Jesus(: then sermon on THE FINAL COURT CASE. yeah. then homed with sherry, her maid and my mum.(:
TODAY!
went to cut my hair. looks weird with straight hair, but i didnt rebond haha. then went to my paternal grandma's house in the evening for reunion dinner!(: ate steamboat and then went to my grandma's room. during every CNY, we will turn her room into the kids' playroom, and the adults will be out in the living room watching tv. haha. look at my cousin's photoshoot in my bro's phone. pretty(: the fashion world is just so fascinating(: then talk to my cousin, he was playing the psp then kept telling me all those funny jokes and how to play the game. i admit i dont like playing games! haha, so it's one ear in one ear out! yeah, and my the other cousin was made the shen dian xia for the day hahaha. on the way back, my bro played the Beauty and the Beast song, and i realised, Disney has the most sweetest and beautiful love songs ever(: alright goodbye(: time to do my work.

Thinking about God's goodness, i can't help but smile widely(:

2010-02-05T22:36:00.001+08:00

RESILENCE WORKSHOP +
AMAZING RACE(((((((:!
Staying in school is so FUN afterall!!!!!(:
Yesterday we had a talk by Mrs Chow, everyone was grumbling. BUT! it turned out to be one of the most interesting life stories i ever heard. She had gone through many hardships, and it takes a lot of courage to actually share her background to all of us. Her talk really motivated me.(:
We headed to 2H, for a talk with our FTs. One class spilt into two groups. For our class, we split into boys and girls. boys with mr heng and girls with mdm rozi. mdm rozi showed us two videos+her life story+pictures of resilience. She kept making us laugh. then it's our turn to share, using the string or i dont know what mrs chow calls it. the girls cried a lot. got to know them really better(: unexpected things but it's worth it. mdm rozi said:"It's not the school that makes a difference, it's you that makes a difference." then lunch together haha, we joined the tables in the harry potter style. then had discussion again+goal settings as a class+letter writing. it's funny to write to ourselves, it's going to be sent in around August. so cool(: then dismissed!
Kbox with chinleng+yong2+kryst after school at Clementi. haha, had a fun time singing and taking crazy photos.(:
TODAY!
it's a fun fun fun extremely fun day!(: had amazing race in our groups. started off by playing the tarzan, gorilla, jane game. which was like scissors, paper, stone to decide which class will go off first.
GIRL POWER, 4I(2)!!!(:
Station 7:
Outside sch. the one that we have to cross over.
S8:
In the canteen. had to use strings holding the marker to write RESILIENCE, draw circle, triangle and square.
S9:
Near the fitness corner. the carrying over.
S10:
Car pull! it's fun haha, we have to pull a car until a distance. SUPPORT(:
S1:
Field, played the ball game. holding of strings and going around to place the ball. RESPONSIBILITY(:
S2:
Twister, was torturous but fun!
S3
the rope skipping. was difficult but we endured(:
S4:
Picking up of red beans, we got a total of 1059beans.
S5:
The canvas mat. have to flip over. girls are creative haha, that's what the instructor said.
S6:
Outside sch. walked on the pebble thingy. accidently slapped mr heng's eye=XXX! so sorry mr heng!!!!!! cos was blindfolded, didnt see him then i slap his eye! oops.

I learnt alot(: thanks to the girls+everyone(: and saw a lot of teamwork, resilience and support! many potentials unfolding! i really enjoyed myself with them. came in 11th and we said a cheer hahaha. we were so hyper! then had refreshments in the canteen. went up to the hall teachers'+students' sharing+ debrief+results! 4I(2) got 6th and 4I(1) got 8th. well doneeee(: and congrats to 4H in winning, haha! I don't mind doing this activity over again(:
Somerset+Bugis with xuanjun, chinleng,kryst and jenny.
accompanied xuanjun to somerset for the cme briefing with mr heng and fangzhou. we went to walk in 313 until 3pm. met mr heng and fangzhou at the ctrl station. then went to the place. and kryst stayed behind with them. cl, jenny and i went to bugis. bought a lot of new year clothes(: then walk and walk and walk. until 5+, xuanjun and kryst came to find us. walk again haha. xuanjun bought the most things! and trained back, talking about random stuffs.
goodbye, tmr having steamboat with GB(:

Dear Lord, You will make a way for all of us(:

2010-02-03T23:45:00.001+08:00

LIM XUAN JUN, I'M BLOGGING!
Happy Belated Birthday to both Tiffany and XiaoFu(Huaiqian)!!!!!(:
Today's chinese paper2, can i say it's difficult? it was easy to understand, but argh, all the answers seems to be the same. just rephrasing my way through haha! paper1 was quite okay, just that mr heng was disturbing us and mrs chow was sending the sec3s off for camp in Malaysia. Today till Friday would be camps for all levels, ours, alright treat it as special, we are having study camp. don't have to dwell much on that! after sch, went to pizza hut with xuanjun, yong2, kohsiong and weiting. had a great laugh there hahaha, and chinleng, huijia and wanfeng came to chat with us too. around 2pm went back to school to find mr heng. waited all the way until 3+pm. meanwhile, we were crapping and talking to ms goh. then went to find mr heng and did ex16C. one less homework(: tomorrow going Kbox with yong2, chinleng and kryst!(: gonna be an exciting day. oh yah, mr heng put the guys in his group and girls in mdm rozi's group for tomorrow.
Behind the scenes, the juniors of GB9thcoy are up to something! can't wait for the steamboat! but i always get this churning in my stomach after eating that!

i love You, Lord, no matter what i see, no matter what i hear(:

2010-01-31T15:38:00.000+08:00

Leadership Conference. turns out to be quite okay, but it's just sooooo long. we were counting down to the end, while xinhua was counting down to the time that she will meet Joy. hahaha. Had 4 sessions in total, two which i think is really meaningful, while the other two don't really apply to my life now. had praise and worship then while waiting for the first speaker to come, we sang songs and cheers. Session 1 was about Marriage and Love. Jesus speaks God's brand of Love for us! oh and session 1, we kept drawing on each other papers and xinhua and peisee started playing BINGO. haha. Session 2 was about Decision Making. It's harder to pull a person up than to pull a person down! Lunch time, all of us had fried rice. we played a short game, was laughing at everything. we played two games in total for the whole conference, the egg game and aye captain game. Session 3 Ethnics for Leadership. Character is what you are when no one is looking. Identify the blind spots with have. and WALK THE TALK, NOT TALK THE WALK(: Session 4 talked about Legacy, her life story and Mattie's life story. it's really touching. and made us think what do we want to leave behind after we left. yeah and Vesper! that's the end of our conference. Staff Sergeants-to-be!(:
Church, went to cell group right after conference. shared about our goals. and then Service. worship then got the news of Ps John resigning from behing a youth Ps. but he's doing work for God(: the gatekeeper of the heart of Orchard Road. God bless you Ps John(:! great step of faith. then Sermon about Sex and R/S by Ps Gary Koh. it's really hilarious. he talked about the difference between guys and girls, which was so true haha. just kept laughing. and also everything is Holy because everything is created by our Holy God(:

Guo Rui is just so CUTE(: He's always the first one in school to make me smile!
(come on, he's only sec1)

Jesus, i believe in You and belong to You.

2010-01-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

Monday's slient reading was a reflection of the year 2008 for me. something personal, but once i saw that one word, lots of scenes flashed through my mind, lots of them. other than that, was 6 periods of math. even mr heng got bored. haha. Bio had test, all the questions have many possible answers. Tuesday had pushball for the first time in the year. it was indescribable. things happened really fast. Phy test on that day, i would be like super duper glad if i would pass that test. Wed had PE, the Brunei students came to our school(: nobody would probably focus on the high jump haha, cos the girls were...don't need to explain. haha. Thurs had chem test. i wonder why all teachers are scolding 4I and i mean it, every single teacher. but at least they did make us laugh at times. today had emath test, easier than the previous one i guess. okay next week there's a change of timetable, PE on fridays, so boring! and CME and math are being put together again! lol. okay goodbye, there's leadership conference tomorrow, 7.30-5.30, wonder what is in place for us.

You've captured my eyes to the wonders anew and Your love.

2010-01-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

SALES OF COOKIES HAD ENDED(:
went to sell cookies at JCC today, sold out within minutes haha. have to thank all the sec4s+Joey+her friend and all the JCC people(: hahaha. yeah it's for Cambodia anyway! Peisee and i have to study for PBB,very sian. but we shall create history yeah?! haha. hope so. 27th march is our brigade knowledge test, wish us all the best yeah! yesterday sec1s came for the very first time to GB. singspiration, so fun to sing hahaha. and then Chaplain spoke about GB. ziqian and rachel kept making me laugh. haha, had fun at the back=X then Games for one and a half hours. sorry poh seemin! yeah and Lunch, thanks to the sec2s and 3s for preparing(: great job yeah. then sec4s talked for half an hour while waiting for the 2s and 3s for dismissal parade. and went homeeee.(: school in a few hours time, and bio test. i won't be like the polar bear! but i wont be so much of the penguin too. hahaha.

You're all i want, You're all i ever needed(:

2010-01-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

Everything this week is about them(above) haha. just finished the things that had to be done for welcome party. i'm supposed to be sleeping by now, but i just feel like blogging. it's going to be a long day in a few hours time, i would get to see the new gb sec1s(: haha.
mon: the most handsome and suave FangZhou was making us laugh! haha, he mimic mr heng and it was just so hilarious.
i cant really remember, oh lessons getting better(: yesterday, kryst and i did chem experiment together, in a way. haha! having fun, it's great to talk nonsense with her, like the friends thing. hahaha.
and wed after sch went "shopping" with gb sec4 girls for the welcome party.
and tdy went to zq's house to bake cookies and do the ducttape wallets.
it was a whole lot of fun!!! hahaha, getting jenny to say out her secret, singing, dancing, crapping, baking, chatting, listening to music, fun fun fun! hahaha.
alright, have to sleep now, NOW. hope everything goes well.

Dear Lord, You have a plan for everyone, and it's always for our good(:

2010-01-16T23:47:00.001+08:00

GB tdy. Singspiration first, was so funny when ziqian and peisee started singing first. hahaaaaa. then Chaplain talked about the new year. something hit me hard, what if we just walk out of home, school or wherever and we get knock down by a car or any accident, there goes our life.
for all you know, the unexpected becomes real.
Be wise and count our days and count our blessings(:
oh, before i forget, Vivian and Joey from 17thcoy came to join us(: welcome to 9thcoy! got to know them through cambodia trip. it's great to see them again, never thought we would.
miss lee gave us a debrief of cca fair. and planning of next week's welcome party. i told you i don't like plannings, cos it's a long process...
drills, was alright. except after that had headache and felt like puking.
games, played the HAHA game and the fastfood game. ziqian kept tickling me lah, then make me laugh. then dismissal parade, i lost my voice!
Lunch with the sec4s at ljs. was sitting with ziqian, peisee, hwaxiang and damaris. hilarious! laugh until stomach pain. we started talking about random stuffs and remembering how we gang up to rebel against the teachers last time.
some things we talked about: guess it's alright to blog it, since it's the past and somehow worth remembering(: it's memories of GB9thcoy.
1) Cherrie was caught by ms lim chiau li for wearing ankle socks and she was pissed off. so she bought westwood socks and pull it high up. on the same day, that fateful afternoon, ziqian, hwaxiang, peisee and me plus the seniors from sheridin's and cherrie's batch went to find ms song. or rather confront her=X cos there was this new "rule" that we have to wear full-u for every alternate week or something like that. and some of us felt that it was ridiculous. so while ms song was happily eating her lunch with other teachers in the home econs room, she was called out by us. then cherrie, was erupting! hahaha. i remembered how they talked to ms song. it was kinda rude, but thinking back now, it's funny and how foolish we were. the next day was saturday so we had gb. they split the seniors away. and they told us it's not our fault, it's the seniors' cos they told us to go along. in the end we had to wear full-u on the first GB meeting of every month. and because of this we wanted to...
2) Skip GB and go sentosa together to play, leaving the 3 sec1s(two years ago) alone, and the seniors will have fun. but then, of course, this didnt happened.
3) Ganging up together to ignore the officers and teachers when we disagree with their decisions. i remember all of refusing to talk to them but eventually, someone would start talking again.
4) Drills was meant to be a torture, the first sec4s we met when we first came in, were really torturing us. but it was fun doing drills and i remember running here and there with all of them.
(everything sounds like SS in this post, hahaha)
5) the first ever drill camp we had, ziqian,peisee,hwaxiang and me cleaned the home econs room's sink cos' we were doing nothing at that time while the rest were polishing their boots. our first time reporting, our first time working together, our first time talking to each other, our first time knowing each other, our first time complaining to each other. ironing in the home econs room, helping the seniors to polish their boots because they had some kind of competition, was it? i remembered we doing other things while they kept going out of school for drill practices. polishing boots outside the classroom before lights out.
6) during national day rehearsals, we would joke all day long cos' we had to keep ourselves energetic. remember, fei zhao guo qiao. haha. i really miss those days with them, doing drills, us complaining most of the time though. shouting 9thcoy as loud as we could cos' it's dismissal time.
7) Sentosa trip together, not skipping GB, but for the sec4s last year. farewell party. playing together, wishing it wouldnt end. sharing of their experiences was like listening to the world's most important speech, the last goodbye, but it wouldnt end just there.
8) camps together, scaring ourselves in late nights, disturbing each other.
9) singspiration was never bored with them around, they would sing in funny voices and filled with enthusiasm. that's the first thing we missed when they passed out, cos the room became so silent.
10) cambodia trip! we had great fun there and working together, though it wasnt the whole company, we never forget about the rest. knowing each other better through everything.
11) the hugs, the motivation, the love, the care, the grudges, the hopes, the aims, the dreams, the cheers, the jeers, forms GB9thcoy. ups and downs, we moved left to right, but GB9thcoy the center of everything, the glory of the girls. ms tay, ms song, mdm peiern, current officers and teachers, previous batches of girls, current ones too. once again, we came in as strangers, we leave as a family(:
this list could go on and on, let's save it for P.O.P. haha.

Jesus, all for Jesus(:

2010-01-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

Another week had passed. and it's only the second week. or rather two weeks had gone, cherish the rest. 3 days of 4.30, but it didn't seem to be longer than last year's 3.30. anyway we had our first rev-up, road run. it's great to run again. mr leonard ong took us for pe this week, he relates physical activity to life, which is a motivating thing. i'm enjoying all my lessons, including physics alright. thinking whether to drop pure physics. but i guess i won't. stayed back in school tdy to consult ms goh and mr heng. i'm having a stack of homework as a reward for the weekend. nobody said studying is easy, but give it a shot. i love my gb girls alot, just a random thought. sometimes you just got to agree, your good friends come from your cca. we came in as strangers, and leaving as a family(: although we seniors may be harsh on the juniors, it hurts actually... alright there's GB tmr(: looking forward to it, but i don't like doing plannings......... goodbye(:

still God, i want to say, Lead me to the cross(:

2010-01-10T18:48:00.002+08:00

A-B-C!
Church yesterday(: had tuition in the morning, and i saw sherry wong! haha, and i lost my voice, my tutor kept asking me questions but i couldnt answer, so she answered herself. lol! and went for cell after that.
Played the cross hand game! probably going to teach my gb girls(: it's really fun and confusing hahaha! oh there's a new guy in our cell, Kenny. then had worship, it was funny=X sorry God, we kept laughing. cos' of natali, she started singing first hahahaha. we had to turn away to stop laughing, haha. then played bomberman!(: we started taking pictures haha! then we had the one word by one word prayer! hahaha(: then went for Service.
Met Chloe Amy Samantha Kang, she's not coming to our church anymore): maybe next time. haha, shall meet her one day. worship! and then watched our One camp Video! hahaha, nicely done, Pastor John(: then Pastor Jenn talked about Going to school with a purpose(: it's a motivating topic for all of us(: Luke 5:1-11. then altar call, and dinner time! went to ikea!(: with a group of people. haha. we all ate MEATBALLS(: delicious! was sitting with sam,sherry and nat's sis. hilarious people. celebrated brenda's birthday(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hmm, then chat and RenHui and Samantha made us laughhhhh.
RH: what's your name?
(Sam was wearing a Roxy shirt)
Some of us: Roxy, Roxy is her name.
RH: oh, hi Roxy! Nice name.
Sam: Hi Hi, yeah.
RH: which cell are you from?
Sam: i'm just visiting
RH: who is that??? (he heard wrongly)
*laughs*
RH: ohohoh, i heard like weezheeting's cell.
hahahaha, that was hilarious! then trained back with Sherry, Gerald and Matthew. so funny! Matthew kept making us laugh with his screams and Gerald's joke about something, made us laugh till tears drop. haha! then homed(:

One thing i know that i have found,
through all the troublems that surrounds,
You are the Rock that never fails,
You never fail.

it's cute that a young kid actually believes that the girl he liked says:"if you dont do this, i will not marry you when we grow up."
now, it's all about diamonds, flowers, chocolates, where's the true love and promising words.

who says girls can't play soccer well.
it's just that when we play,
the boys will chase after us to get the soccer ball.
(haha, no offence)

2010-01-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

HEY CCA FAIR FINALLY ENDED.
it's a wonderful finishing.
Girls, thanks for all your hard work(: it all came down to the 4minutes or so that we had and you did well!!!!(:
wanna thank all seniors that came back to help us((((: love you all!
i lost my voice after all the commands and screamings.
Lastly, JOIN GB AND BB((((((:!
Thank God for everything today and even for the rain(:

These few days had been having long lessons, this week is like super slow... don't you feel it? we already had 2 or 3 tests, assignments and new chapters being taught. all the drill practices probably made it feel longer. there's more to come.

Dear God, i just want to say i'm grateful for everything you had given to me(:

2010-01-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

School's great. Phy was draining my energy, i'm struggling to keep awake but i found a method to do so lol! anyway i'm currently sitting with yongyong(: and behind us are care-nerve and dog bear(: our new chinese teacher is mr chiam, he's really kind. sat with jiexin again, and she said "lai lao shi zai jian" haha! and for the last two periods, mdm saha let us switch on the air-con(: haha, cooling. mr heng dont believe in by having air-con, we will be able to do better in studies so yeah. but depending on the subject teachers. mdm saha gave us new year gifts, thank you!! oh and tdy had bio test, having to call ms goh as mdm goh is really weird. there's ss test tomorrow. alright goodbye(:

i called, You answered,
and You came to my resuce,
and i wanna be where You are(:

2010-01-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

Self denial.
Gentleman, slow to anger and fast to forgive. *blank* probably don't fall under this category, but it's okay, *blank* just like to do things in a different way. not a bad thing though.

2010-01-04T00:39:00.001+08:00

Chloe Amy Samantha Kang&Dinah Abigail Helen Lucy Chua!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIQIAN((((((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH((((((:
Leaving for school in around 6hours time. It's been 24days since i last wore my school uniform. and 25days since i last wore my gb uniform. and in 6hours time, i have to wear the former, and in 14 hours time, i have to wear the latter. don't remember how i look like. but yeah. how would 2010 school year be like? i don't know. but i'm sec4 already(: no more horseplaying, it's down to serious stuffs. my first priority is of course God(:, You're the lover of my life and i'll never let You go(: thanks for all Your promises and understanding me and forgiving me. and then family, this year i'm giving most of my time to them. friends, i'm sorry but i may not have like ample time for you all but still it doesnt mean you all are not important(: gb, this year is going to be our P.O.P year, but i know i would not be able to let go of this cca even though now i really feel like passing out now. but you girls are one important part of my life, a vital one. studies, you are forever part of my life, thanks for sticking by me even if i feel sad, frustrated, happy or whatever, you're the one that make me cry when it's HARD times and make me smile when it's EASY. this prove that studies you're my "close friend". sorry that i vent my frustrations on you at times and protest when you just want to spend time with me. this year, you're going to be MINE wahaha. crazy! okay goodbye(: time to SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP. seeya guys and girls tmr(:

i got my aim for this year! in terms of the walk with God(:
He's gonna lead me, i will follow!
trusting in what He says, today is the day!
Jesus you are so good, there's nothing to fear cos' i'm here in Your presence!(:

2010-01-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

YOOs!(:
my dearest cell group has 4 additional members, all girls haha! but guys don't feel inferior cos' we are still YOOs!(: kicking off with pre-prayer meeting. we changed our cell room anyway! went in, and heard our very own YOOs band and radio 4D reporter hahaha! was so funny. then had like camp cheers+camp rap! okay then down to serious things(: sang a song and prayed for our cell. and came our new cell members, they are all sec1s this year anyway! Rachel, Rachael, Eliza and Grace(:! Introduction to our cell and worship and we played the name game+fastfood game! hahaaaa. cell ended at 5pm tdy cos' we had to meet our tribes!
FACE tribe!(:
met to rehearse the cheers. new style! and we are ready to shout haha. met Chloe Amy Samantha Kang again! the girl that keeps calling me Dinah Abigail Helen Lucy Chua. she can't be more hilarious!
Service!(:
went into the auditorium! Butt tribe was first to present their cheers, then FACE! then Back, Torso, Arms and Legs. cool! then worship! as what Pastor Jenn had post on FB, tdy's service is going to be so different and awesome! most of the people remained in front and jumped to the beat!!!!! was with SamanthaKang and Brenda! high with them(:! all glory to God(: was tiring but worth it and love it. great to see everyone's smiles! after worship was communion! and then Sermon by Senior Pastor Derek(: talked about a New year, is it a New me? and what you have brought over from 2009 to 2010, and what you do not want to bring over.2 Cor 5:16-21(: anyway weekly happenings has a cool new cover(: sat with SamanthaKang and ChongHao. so funnyyyyyy! Sam mispronounce ChongHao's Christian name, and i laughed like non-stop!!!!!! hahaha, her facial expression and chonghao's hahaha, so funny! then worship, went in front again, sang the OH HAPPY DAY song again!!!!!! nice song and love it! JUMPS(: i feel so joyful(: hahaha. took pictures after service, will post it soon on FB! dinner with half of cell+Samantha Kang(: aj and her brother left. and so it's me,sherry and sam sitting down. and here's when the fun and laughters begin! and i mean laughterSSSSSSS! Chloe Amy Samantha Kang kept making the both of us laughhhhh with her blur looks and hilarious response! we laughed until stomach pain! haha, just love to talk to her! it can be so so so fun! then went to take mrt, she went the other way, even when entering the mrt, she made us laugh! sherry and i took the other way towards boonlay. shared about alot of things, and noticed i'm losing my voice again! but worth it(: yeah, and goodbye!(:

slow to anger, slow to judge!!!!!!!
OH HAPPY DAY HAPPY DAY, YOU WASH MY SINS AWAY((((:

2010-01-01T01:25:00.001+08:00

FACE TRIBE(:!
and the above picture is the group picture
squeezing 300 people in there haha!
&it's 2010 already!

2009-12-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

MASSETER+FACE TRIBE 
=AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!(:
CHURCH ONE CAMP 2009!

28th-31stDec.

P6 to Campus.

it's a great big way to end 2009!!!!!!!! i love church camps!!!!! woohoo. year 2010, God is going to move in my life and yours too! today is 2009, tomorrow 2010. i'm praising God today, tomorrow i'm still praising God! and forever.(:

DAY1:
report in church's car park at 9.30am. register at the booth and searched for my grp. was so afraid that i wont mix well with them at first. but my leaders were kind(: waited for the rest. and soon i saw my whole group. introduction and things went well. but was abit bored at first.
let's intro to the groups and tribes first before i continue!
BRAINS:
Camp comm!!!!!!(most important people!)
FACE TRIBE!(my tribeeeee!):
MASSETER!(my grouppppp!): Jian(Ldr), Kimmie(Asst.Ldr), Tyrus, Brenda, Tina, Theodore, Genevieve, Joshua, Elijah and me(they printed my name as Dinah, so was abit confusing for people haha).
Buccinator, Temporalis and Mentalis are in Face tribe too! 4 groups per tribe!
ARMS:
Bicep, Tricep, Flexor, Pronator
TORSO:
Umbilicus, Pectoralis, Diaphragm, Serratus
BACK:
Multifidus, Rotatores, Spinalis, Longissimus
BUTT:
Gluteus, Minimus, Tensor, Piriformis
LEGS:
Pectineus, Fibula, Tibia, Sartorius
as i've said i'm from MASSETER!(: one of the chewing muscles. and FACE TRIBE!(: rock on. our tribes are body parts cos we are ONE body! okay back to day1 activites, we had ice-breakers, the blanket game, played in our tribes! haha. Lunch and then went to our dorms. i slept in the 100 beds room, anyway there are like 300 people in this camp! haha. Team building activities, that's right, that's when we started to bond.we made a tribe icon, 4 faces with different emotions. it's really nice. thanks to Tyrus idea and also Theodore's drawing. washing up and dinner times was staggering over each other. yeah, last tribe to bathe that day. Session 1, worship+sermon by pastor jenn!(: She talked about What is Love? and talked about the manner/measure and method of love. Lastly, God is love! then had supper and lights out at around 12am. slept beside annabel, she's really funny. she's a girl from another group but same tribe.
Day 2:
woke up at around 6am. played a game as devotion, we played the balloon passing game was hard but fun! breakfast, nasi lemak, totally killed us, so full! anyway our group starts to open up to each other and kept joking with each other. Tyrus is always the one who bring the spirits up and starts talking non-stop. and alsoour leaders who brought us together as a group. Session 2 by pastor jenn again(: i love worship sessions too! where you get to experience and respond to God. Session 2 was about Loving Yourself!(: and wrote down our goals for this camp. Lunch and then Games!!! went to sembawang park. played 4 games, first was the amoeba race, haha. and then spider marshmallow game, kimmie piggyback me! and 3-legged captain's ball, was with joshua! and lastly, human tic-tac-toe, haha, was a close fight. we did well in games as a group! and combining back for the points, and did our wonderful group cheer! was really funnyyyyy! anyway we have been doing group cheers and it's fun! thanks to kimmie and audrey for leading! and also Tyrus. Washing up+Dinner. Session 3, exciting one! Pastor jenn talked about Love One Another!(printed on our limited edition camp tee) and shared with our groups about 4 areas to start loving others and how can we do it. then started prophecy!!!! this is a great time, and shared visions and everything. shared with sherry, kimmie and melissa. supper and lights out at around 12am.
Day 3:
Arise at 6am again! played a game for devotion again! the one where we had to squeeze in 6 newspapers and the 4. and we had to squeeze 300people in too! as in not 4 only but quite a few. we managed to do that but we didnt manage to squeeze in the camp comm. it reminds us to be together as ONE. breakfast and then Session 4 by pastor victor. he shared about us going for outreach in the later part of the day and also starting by loving the community. Love in action!(our theme for next year) and shared about what we want to see during this outreach and then Lunch and resting time. changed into our camp tee which writes EVERYONE! this reminded me, we will always do our camp rap at ONEpm! everything is about ONE for this ONE camp. yeah man!(everyone starts saying yeah man! ever since Torso started it hahaha) had like group cheer practice and many other activities. we also took a group photo, imagine squeezing 300people into ONE photo, hard work! prepared ourselves to do outreach. Dinner and here we go to Henderson! went into our groups, one group split into two smaller groups. i'm with Jian, Tyrus, Tina and Elijah. fun and great group! Tyrus kept joking with us hahaha. OUTREACH! went to 3houses to bless them with calendars. and the second house we went to, the owner invited us in for a chat and also drink. his two kids were so cute and even scared me and tina. and all of our chinese was......but we were able to translate it for Jian. and i prayed in chinese, it was hard but i leave it to God to help me with that. and done(: went back and sang a song in the area that! love it. we jumped and screamed. on the way back, took photos in the bus and also sing like crazy! our tribe is just so hyper and will keep singing. theodore and tyrus were the ones leading haha. and Buccinator's leader, dalun was doing his hip isolation haha! and found out Jian and audrey are together! then Celebration night! had sharing first and had a great laugh with them.and had a snacks feast haha. Worship!!!! we were so hyper and jump for joy for our Lord(:! had great funnnn! enjoyed myself! then prize presentation, congrats to LEGS for getting first, well done to my tribe too! FACE!(: all of us got a metal keychain with our names, so nice!!!!! and did our cheers!!! yeah and then dismissed but it's not sleeping time, it's playing time!!!!! the guys went to play soccer. and i played indian poker+true or dare with sherry,joy,samantha kang(kimmie's sister),estella,nicole and anna. was so funny, samantha and i kept sabo-ing each other! i was the first one to do dare. haha! got to know them better anyway. and we played all the way until 2+am. lights out at 3am, slept at around 4am.
Day 4(today):
ARISE at 7am! breakfast and sharing, Pastor Kevin joined us, anyway he's our tribe leader!!! a really kind and friendly man! haha. Worship! & a session of sharing testimonies!!! i love testimonies(:! then did our ONE camp rap!(: and bused back to church!!!! i really loved this camp alot and also got to know alot of other people, it's a wow factor to know people from other groups too. and got to know God more(:!! we are going to meet this saturday again! in youth service! excited!
Give thanks to the Lord!!!
and also thanks to
Jian: for being ever-so caring towards us and also smiling always.
Kimmie: for being so crazy and loving! and her laughter is just so funny!
Tyrus: for entertaining us and talking to us when we are bored, sharing with us funny things that happened during the night.
Theodore: for being a gentleman to us! and his way of talking can be so funny! and the way he explained about Ronaldo haha.
Genevieve: for the constant arguement with Theodore about soccer and saying about each other and also crapping with me.
Tina: for playing the eyes game! haha, and keeping me company throughout this whole camp!
Joshua: for being my partner for captain's ball! was really great knowing you.
Elijah: for being such a funny and cute guy, joking with me at times.
Brenda: for your concern and we keep calling you, muay thai girl! haha!
SamanthaKang: for your jokes and funny actions hahaaaaa, and also disturbing me and calling me with a new name: Helen Lucy Chua. hahaha.
Sherry: for sharing with me things about what happened in camp.
Nicole: for your cute facial expressions and your singing.
Estella: for your smiles and jokes during the indian poker game and also during sessions haha!
Anna: for the fun you gave during the indian poker game! and chatting about random stuffs.
Camp Comm: for preparing this whole camp!!!!!
Pastor Vic: for ensuring everything is well and guiding us.
Pastor Jenn: for sharing your life stories and also other things that ministered to all of us.
Pastor Kevin: for being a great tribe leader and also joking with us haha.

blog about our cheers next time hahaha, it's so cool!!
FACE(:

Thank you Lord for being so faithful towards me and assuring me all the way through this camp(:

2009-12-28T08:12:00.001+08:00

CHURCH ONE CAMP! 28TH-31STDEC!:D!

i'm leaving home in around 15minutes time haha, but my bro is still sleeping! oh anyway on the 26th was our last youth service of the year! and i did ushering for the last time of the year! haha, it's great. i love my team alot! sermon was by Pastor Michael Ross Watson!!!
do it in your way, God says "That's up to you."
do it in God's way, God says "I will give you victory."
and altar call, i felt that yes, i need to surrender everything thing to God, i'm holding onto too many things. went up, and we sang Through It All. felt peaceful after that! dinner with cell(:
Yesterday, had a great time singing and jumping around at home hahaha, while waiting to go out. Went town with the girls. we went to 313 and lucky plaza, had to meet my mum after that, so went off while they continued. yeah, camp's gonna be a blast(: okay he just woke up, he dont even remember that i woke him up! and he even answered me DONT CARE LAH, then he say he dont remember. lol! goodbye!

Today is the day, You have made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!(:!
I'm trusting in what You say!

2009-12-26T01:10:00.002+08:00

HEY(: I had an awesome Christmas!!! although i did not have like events yesterday. went to church in the morning for the Christmas service! i like the dance! and worship and sermon on thanksgiving(: by pastor Derek(: great topic! and worship! lunch with sherry, chonghao and keann. they were trying to guess alot of things, haha, was so funny to disturb chonghao. yeah and homeeee.
although my love language isnt gifts butttttt...
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO GAVE PRESENTS TO ME((((((:
and i really like them!!
let's probably go by order?
Mum, new phone(: (not using yet, wait until 2010 haha)
Auntie Kathy, wallet!(using it now)
Brigitte, a frog soup thingy (all the way from taiwan)+a card!
Seemin, a very nice miniature piano! (as a gift exchange during chalet)
Sherry, a cute snowman figurine!(planning to put my thoughts in there haha)
Jiayi, i really really like the present she gave me haha! thanks(: she gave me a card and a tank top from num, the card is really touching to me haha! i guess this is the best Christmas gift for this year(: ohoh and the bag!!!!! hahahahaha. it says "even santa shops here" although i dont believe in santa but but so cute! i mean the bag not santa. okay i'm facing the facts, i like weird stuffs.
Auntie Faith, puzzle and frame! (i spent 2hours doing it just now! i love doing puzzles&yeah it's done and it's nice hahaha)
Mum's Friend, a bookmark with the word "Glory" and a verse!
did i miss out anyone? maybe not haha.
oh and and thanks for all those messages(:

most importantly, the greatest gift ever,
THANK YOU LORD JESUS FOR THE CROSS(:

2009-12-25T00:19:00.001+08:00

BLESSED CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!!!!((((((:

2009-12-24T21:38:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas eve to all(: Tmr is finally Christmas, the wonderful season i've been waiting for. haha, great yeah! Christmas isnt just a red number on your calendar, it's far more than that(: Ytd, was singing in the car all the way back home with my eldest brother. Tdy is the last day of our bread. Bread ceremony! haha, nonsense, that's just something my second bro said in the morning. went to vivo at around 2+pm, late right? but who cares, OTOT! i brought a camera bag out haha, it's because my bro forgot to bring his camera out and i had to bring it to him at clementi. met his bestfriend's sis too. and headed to vivo. candy empire(: and walked around. oh yeah i went alone, supposed to go town with xuanjun and crystal, which is being changed to sunday. anyway i'm still thinking whether to go or not, cos' had been going out in the day and doing homework at night. and in vivo, i went to the sky park, stared at sentosa's new works and reflected on this whole year, 2009. 2010 is going to be a real stressful year but i'm prepared to go against all odds with God(: went to sit near the waters, cooling to put your legs inside(: and one thing from this year, sometimes i neglected God and placed many things in front of Him, and so i prayed and talked to Him. i told myself it's Christmas eve so why not pray for someone, so i asked God about it. well, i saw this lady sitting near me, alone, and she seems to be looking at everyone that walked by. was such an awkward start at first, then i sat down beside her and talked to her. it's a great chat, she's jobless now and so i prayed for her. well, she asked about church and other things. yeah and i left. walked around somemore and trained to jp. had strawberry sundae(:! and homed, watch this tv show, it's some Christmas special, haha, funny. and went to jp again to meet mum. bought dinner and back again. yeah(: enjoyed myself tdy and goodbye(:

Lead me to the cross, where your love pour out(:

2009-12-23T00:25:00.001+08:00

Christmas: CELL STEAMBOAT+GB CHALET!(:
back from GB chalet! on sunday, i had a fun-filled time spent with the cell members(: met at AMK hub to shop for our steamboat things, it can never get boring. esp. leonard's explanation which is the "praik" word. me and evan cant stop laughing. even the auntie there too. done with shopping and sam wong+chonghao+pastor peter came. went to leonard's house, near YCK. started on preparing the food and ch took videos of us saying we are inexperienced lol! come on, we did a great job, at least i guess no one had a stomach upset? haha. had steamboat! that was even more hilarious. and each of us shared something about our childhood. ch's and samuel's made us laugh till we cry. alright, and watch the grandmother's hot show, AI. we even had our YOOS version of ai. hahaha. took a video of it, upload soon. yeah and i went off early, second bro came to fetch me. GB chalet ytd and tdy was one of the great times i shared with them. although there were so little people, we managed to enjoy ourselves. went to ehub to buy our bbq things. mindy came to find us after checking in. went to rent bikes and stayed in the chalet for awhile, talked. and it's time to bbq! it's one of the best fire ever! we took less than 10minutes? to get it going. haha, that's a good start. yeah the food was delicious(: except for the crabmeat haha. then watched tv. oh sheena came to "visit" us, she's having a family chalet nearby. watched dang wo men tong zai yi qi. and laughed at huishi's shuai ge. hahaha, mindy kept joking! took more photos. and ride in the rain with rachel and seemin. so cold! then bathed. was talking to seemin for very very long in the bathroom. and we bathed with clothes so dont think dirty. haha, and talked somemore until 2+am. didnt sleep well, was either too noisy or too cold. i even dismissed the fact that a cockroach went into our chalet? which was probably near me and they kept shouting. haha. woke up fully at around 4 or so. and went out with seemin to find sheridin and rachel. chat and ride bicycle again. we went to see the sunrise. but failed cos we didnt which direction it's coming from. had mac as breakfast. fell asleep there, but kept waking up too. went back to chalet, cant help but drop on the bed and sleep for another 1hour. this time i didnt wake up haha, thanks brigitte for waking me up to go home. took the train with huishi and melissa. and they alighted to go imm and i went home. rest for awhile and did my work(: alright tmr having tuition and dental. okay, goodbye(:

God is great, sing His praise(:

2009-12-20T13:34:00.002+08:00

heyyyyy! GB yesterday, wiped out my energy after the 5 rounds of running. had drills+FancyDrills. we finally reached the cool part, but i didnt had the same feeling of excitement as our drill comp. did banner with the sec3s too(: haha, that was fun. esp.xinhua and i started drawing on each other's hands. dismissed and went to ljs with sec3s+huishi&sheridin. and homed! second bro fetched me to church, but first we have to pick up his bestfriend. she's pretty+friendly haha. once, she came to our hse when i was quite young, we played like crazy and joked together. and she told me about my brother's girlfriend, who was there at that time too. haha that was a memory with her, oh and she still remembers me. she went to London or US? for studies and come back once in a while. oh and we were late for church. but still in time for worship! Sermon(: i love that guy! he's a great guy in Christ! talked about Fear. DO NOT FEAR! Perfect love drives away fear(: everytime if we fear, look at God and remind yourself who you really are in Christ and get touched by God's grace(: didnt had dinner after service, bought milo dinosaur(: and trained back with sherry. she alighted at je as usual. and i headed to jp to meet jiayi(: thanks for accompanying! bought some things from popular and homed! i kept getting bites from mosquitoes!!!!! argh, everywhere i go, i'll confirm get one. it's so itchy, and the best part is i'm not allowed to scratch! oh anyway, i'm going for cell christmas party later! decided not to sleepover. yeah, but still, it's going to be fun!(: goodbye(:

~~ways of the world~~

GOD'S WAY

~~cravings;temptations~~

ONE DESIRE BY THE GRACE OF GOD

i'm God's workmanship!(:
 5 more days to Christmas(:

2009-12-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

7 days to Christmas(:!!!
BlackBerry9700Bold&iPhone
abigail's&josiah's

Christmas gifts from mum(:
got them tdy(:

Thanks mum!

acelearning differentiation could kill all of my brain cells. dislike online assignments alot, simply because it strains the eye and time is running. and some are always difficult. thanks alot to someone and somebody in helping(: i'm tired! going to sleep soon, GB tmr.(:

it's God and the joy of giving(:

2009-12-18T10:50:00.001+08:00

Town town town town town. Wisma>Ion>WL>Cine>Ion>JP. i spent $_0. hahaha, not revealing! but i'm sure it takes me 1 and a half weeks to get back that amount of money. haha. alright, walk until we drop on the mrt that's going back home. kryst and i were so hyper, screaming at everything and laughing like mad. and xuanjun was the one that kept going "can go eat already? far or not? my legs very suannnn." ate dinner at jp mac. and finally xuanjun smiled, lol, cos she got the things she want to eat! okay and homed! i'm not going out tdy, next two weeks is going to be so so so so so so packed. like seriously everyday not free.
20-21: Cell Christmas Party'Sleepover!
21-22: GB Christmas Chalet!
23: Tuition'Dental'Other appoinments
24: Payback time from xuanjun and krystal. Shopping again! but they are the ones spending now.
25: Christmas(!!) Service!
26: GB FD practice
27: Christmas party with friends(?!)
28-31: Church One Camp!!
well goodbye(:

the Cross before me(:

2009-12-16T23:04:00.001+08:00

3ICECREAMMMMMM(:

yesterday was 3I's outing!@sentosa+bbq!@wcp. we are out to have fun under the sun, no more books for the moment. Playing in the waters/digging hole/taking photos/having fun! the above picture shows how much we love somebody(: that's bad but he actually joked with us. BBQ was a success even with the rain! we had an "indoor" bbq, all the umbrella covering us haha. had a great time chatting though! and mr heng entertaining us there, and he even got himself a PINK umbrella. haha! but have to thank him(: for helping us. and thanks to everyone too(: we went to mac after the fire was gone. played truth or dare. yesterday was really funnnn!(: next year: 4I chalet(: mr heng was the one who came up with this idea and he kindly volunteered to book the chalet for us. okay, tdy had GB! was i fierce? sorry if i was. seniors were strict on us tdy, which is a good thing if you see it in another way. Drills+talking. and we had some time together at pizza hut!!! haha, i remembered that person's words... the rest would also remember i guess. we managed to make a joke out of the cold environment. haha, had a great time with them(: oh two days ago, swam 20laps(: refreshing! so i've been in the waters for 3days. and i'm having sunburn now! it's painful, but worth it as i had fun fun fun(:

God reaches to everybody faster than anything.(: and He reaches right through your heart.

2009-12-14T17:02:00.000+08:00

i'm talking in a gibberish way.
WEWW~, not that i watch okto, just happen to hear how they pronounce that.
mum's in jb now, shopping her money away.
(she probably would buy things for me)
second bro's in batam now, serving the Lord in a different way.
(it's church leaders' advance)
eldest bro's in camp relunctantly.
(he's in civil defence anyway for NS)
abigail is here blogging dumbly.
(she's left alone at home, waiting to go swimming)
read Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult.
Sometimes parents don't find what they're looking for in their child, so they plant seeds for what they'd like to grow there instead.
my second brother knows when he's in the wrong, he would try to ask for forgiveness from mum in a funny way, that i almost laughed out loud yesterday. but i kept quiet, mum ignored him, and i just stared at him, probably thinking "good one." eldest bro has a strong character and great pride, but it doesnt seem to be his stumbling block. a talented guy, probably many girls would want, but sadly, he's not a person thrown into love's trap. he can die for his passion for fashion design but for girls, nahhh. well for me, you'll never understand. i don't forget matters easily, be it good or bad, happy or sad, so that's a plus and minus point. i would probably never lead things properly cos my thoughts are everywhere. i can be really indecisive. but the decision to be with God and to be a doctor never wavers. it can be seen i don't like to go home and probably not care about my family. but i do. sometimes, i deny the fact that my mother understands me because of the constant naggings and all, but i know she cares after many incidents. i rather care more for people than they care about me. my mum is strong not only on the outside but inside. she talks about dad sometimes freely as can be, like nothing had happened. i can't. she works like several jobs but never once complain or told us the reason why is she doing this. she would stay awake or half asleep just to wait for every single one of us to reach home. although she would joke that it was so peaceful with either one of us not being home, i know she feels more than glad to have all of us at home, in her sight. that's about it. goodbye(:

LOVE ONE ANOTHER(:

2009-12-13T22:29:00.001+08:00

Dragon Boat(:!
great highlight of the day. haha. 7 of the gb girls went to kallang. me, ziqian, peisee, hwaxiang, brigitte, sheena &jeslin. had quite a long walk to that place!!! the signboards were wrong. wonder who put those signboards there that point at the exact opposite direction of our destination. reached earlier than the church people. felt awkward but soon it faded to the excitement for our first dragon boat experience! briefing and we got ready. was in boat E with the 6 of them, minhui, mindy, huiwen, huiling, a girl from another church, a pastor and one guy+ 5 "motors" and the main instructor. sat with minhui, haha, she's of great company. our boat was meant to win, so called. practised and played at the same time. we had some problems in getting focused or stop joking, cos there's this ultimate fact that we paid the $$ and we're supposed to have fun! right? but the instructor probably didnt understand. i guessed we got quite an experience there hahaha! it was so fun at first, and there came the storms. had a competition, we got 2nd. alright mindy said we would go for dragon boat next time with all the girls, but with a more friendly ______. hahaha! we pity huiwen&mindy alright! they did well, we all did well. trained back to jp, some person said HEY to hwaxiang. lol. I WANT TO GO FOR DRAGON BOAT AGAIN!(: but probably not the same place hahahaha.
i'm getting really exhausted these few days. cannot take it.
going for a swim&out for dinner tmr(:

it's a commitment to God(:

2009-12-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

GB FD practice was alright tdy except it's exceptionally warm tdy. bb was having camp so we had games in between as they need the parade grounds. played handiplast, 007, concentration, musical chairs&BLIND MICE.(we are not childish) blind mice was so hilarious! hahaha. watch us play and you will be the one rolling on the floor instead. haha! continued with drills. we still have more to go! cant wait to do the cool part. haha. Jp after drills, ate longjohn. peisee and i were talking about class allocation for next year. dont come so fast please.
Church! worship was great(: that's what i would always say, cos indeed it's awesome. Sermon by Pastor Michael Ross Watson!!! he talked about Judges 6 and Gideon. doing a series of achieving your destiny in Christ(: talked about the first point tdy on Don't rely on your own strength and ability. God loves to use people who recognise they can't do it, not the arrogant but humble ones. God likes to use somebody who thinks he is nobody, but he is everything in God's eyes. Isaiah 66:1&2 talked about God is just so big. great sermon(: didnt eat dinner tdy just drank milo dinosaur(: got a book Evolution for just 80cents(: interesting book.
dragon boating tmr! time to get tan again! somebody just let out a cry below, that goes ahhhh huh huh.

my brother said this:"I can resist anything in the world, except temptation."
haha crazy.

when you cut God away from your life, what is there left?

2009-12-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

HEY! back from chemistry workshop(: two days in NUS was kinda like a torture of university life but yet sometimes it would be so fun that you can't bear to leave.
Day1:
get up the bus and off to NUS, went to LT22 to register. got our tags+lab coats+booklets. intro to chemists from both Britol&NUS. envy them! and briefing on our practicals. so everything was done at around 10. time for practicals! went to the Analytical Teaching lab for our first two practicals.
1.Investigating an oscillating clock(B-Z reaction)
was kinda boring cos must keep timing. did this with xuanjun.
2.Thin layer chromatography
normal things we do in lab except different chemicals like stingcarb! and using the UV ray was the first time, cool.
then had our lunch break, ate the yong tau fu(?) as told by ms ng that it's delicious. next we went to the Organic Teaching lab at the next block. did a complicated experiment, running two experiments at the same time. so messy, got tired of doing suction filtration &reflux haha. oh we did:
1.Depolymerisation of the plastic PET
following experiments done with yong2. oh and we all look weird with goggles. haha. had to wear gloves+lab coat+goggles and stand at all times during experiments.
2.Preparation of paracetamol
and then headed back to LT22 for a lecture on Chemistry of Perfumes. he gave us a few things to smell, which includes:
-cat's butt(can puke!!!)
-vanilla(nicest!!!)
-something that smells like medicated oil
-the nice smell guess it's perfume
-peppermint
yeah and done, bused back to westwood.
Day2:
2practicals! oh tdy is a super funny day, kohsiong and kenneth were the cause of all the mess! hahaha. but it's fun!
1.Colour chemistry-making an azo dye
everything went on well except our crystals were small at first.weiyang did something really funny, he went to stir the wrong funnel hahaha. and because of this, got to talk to one of the other sch's girl.
2.Preparation of "Oil of Winter Green"
this was when the mess begin! hahaha, kohsiong or kenneth pluck the wrong tube to the reflux thingy. while mine and yong2's already running well. then the water started splashing out hahaha. and we asked this super kind lady, she's one of the chemist from Bristol to help us. oh within these two days there were mainly 5 chemists that helped us, they are just so friendly! esp. the one that helped us when the water splashed and a photographer kept taking photos of us doing stupid actions. okay back on track, so the water sprayed and then we called her, and she came to try too. and when she tried on-ing again, the water sprayed super high and on her lab coat. then she told the overall in-charge, she's so funny, then she kept joking. took tissue paper and cleaned everything. then she kept saying "great job, team spirit, that's good." haha ytd, K&K's wire got on fire, tdy they splashed water all over. during the waiting time, we saw special experimental equipments and took pictures with chemists and among ourselves with ms ng's camera. and then lunch break. ate fish n chips, delicious!
Back to LT22 for lectures. no more practicals. Preeti started on Life in Extreme Environments and the other lady talked about Drug design and Computational Chemistry. followed on by the ending lecture, A Pollutant's Tale. Tim(overall in charge) was the funniest guy!!!!! he kept joking and i like the way he explained everything. he showed us many experiments, most likely we wont ever see it again until next time. eg: elephant's toothpaste, explosion in the bottle thingy, nitrogen gas experiments, balloons with helium and nitrogen and many more. enjoyed that time very much! he said: If it moves and is green, it's Biology; If it smells, it's Chemistry; If it does not work, it's Physics. hahaha. and we got our Certificate of Achievement and did evaluation on the workshop. and it was time to go home. walked around jp for awhile and home home home. photos probably will be uploaded on FB by ms ng cos i dont have a sony cable. there's GB tmr.

Take it all(:

2009-12-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

two words: DAMN IT-.-

2009-12-09T20:09:00.001+08:00

GB Flag day, really dread doing this every year. thinking about it, sec3s, didn't you all realise this is our last flag day? provided if GB flag day is after our POP. my partner was Dawn! half of us went to boonlay and the rest to JE. boonlay had more "business" so the rest came. Beginning to like flag day suddenly when we were doing halfway through(besides the exhaustion). many thanks to Huishi for helping the people at boonlay(:!&buying us drinks when we were thirsty. Mum taught us not to talk to strangers, but tdy i talked to lots of them, and even had some conversations. i just like it when people say thank you or have a nice day or just simply talk. and esp.their smiles! yeah it's a great feeling. that's why i found out that flag day wouldnt be so bad. break in jp mac. headed back to unity sec. we basically flooded the train cabin blue. back to sch. lunch with peisee,hwaxiang&ziqian at fico pizza hut. they came to my house and watch final destination 2. same storyline except the ending is different. good good.(: alright goodbye, there's chem workshop tmr. hope it's going to be okay and not so boring. if not we probably would hear a lioness roaring at us.

i'm ai bi gai er.

lei qie er: RI QI. hahaha.

without God, there's no me.

2009-12-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

2h sleepover(:
at kenneth's hse: watched a bugs' life+the guys play xbox. waited till 5+pm and for the others to come. started bbq. it's great to bbq rather than eat. played the slides and water with a few of them. went up to take seemin's cake with cjy. and she went to search for the lighter. haha, we almost had a candle-less cake. celebrated her birthday. and played awhile more before going up for a bath. was talking to seemin and kryst all the way. and had maggie(: thanks kenneth! watching tv+gaming+using com. some of them slept. left me,rach,cl,rongfan,arnold,yongjie, jiyu,weiyang to watch boogie man+mulan+i'm not stupid too. couldnt sleep until 6+am tdy. the girls slept, leaving the guys to watch the movie+maple. slept for 1hour and got woken up by the guys. saw weiyang having his breakfast haha. couldnt sleep again. until 8+ or so then sleep again. until 10am when kryst woke me up to go mac for breakfast with jiayi and seahcheng. they chat, i listen. was too tired to speak.went back to kenneth's house again and watch videos+sleep. played xbox for awhile with kryst. that's about it(: goodbye.thanks alot to kenneth who had help us prepare and organise everything(: and of course letting us stay at your house.it's 2h once again...&i wouldnt be able to have a good night sleep again, reporting at 7am in school tmr for GB flag day.

Dance for God(:

2009-12-07T00:49:00.002+08:00

i'm suppose to be blogging this on 6thDec but was doing book review...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,PEISEE((((((:!
don't be so naughty anymore and don't learn the 8 points.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,SEEMIN((((((:!
all the best in everything you do.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,SHEVAUN((((((:!
we don't bite, so do talk to us.

061209:
woken up by my mother who was wide awake at 4am just to wake my brother and his friends up for their marathon. and she told me something that i was, of course, not listening. i'm half asleep at that time, that's a good reason for me not remembering what she had said. slept back. drag myself out of bed to prepare for my cousin's wedding. and all set to go. reached at 11am. Tea ceremony. took photos with cousins(: went in at around 12+ reaching 1pm. played a lame game yet it can kill your brain cells with Jaden. i will try it with you people one day haha! waited for the wedding to begin. Solemnization first and then lunch. my cousin, the bride, is gorgeous! oh and their wedding album, taken at Hongkong for $5000, was pretty and cool! love the sunset and snow setting. And the dishes came. delicious! my brother came halfway cos he just ran his 42km marathon, and he can't walk properly now. took photos with the bride and groom and went off. down with flu and headache! alright, tmr's 2h gathering, i'm lazy to pack my bag.

cars are like metal things flying around.

1cross+3nails=4given

2009-12-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

FD practice tdy! i can say it's much better than the previous practice, we are improving! which is a great sign although there were some complications. if anyone noticed when we did normal drills, the bangings are nice(: drill for 2hours and birthday celebration(: happy birthday in advanced to peisee,seemin and shevaun.(: i like the cake deco! but what matters, is their thinking haha. continued with FD and drills. Peisee's birthday celebration surprise: zq and hx and me went off quickly, but end up taking the same bus as peisee they all lol! and our juniors are so rich eh?! go jp only then take taxi. then went to buy our lunch, went to zq's hse. played hx's FB. hahaha, super funny. yannni came too. then blew balloons and waited for xinhua's instructions. it started to rain. we look like some idiots carrying balloons and running across the road under the heavy rain. hahaha! but fun. xinhua opened the door for us. surprised peisee but of course she suspected alot of things already. played monopoly. haha, ziqian,peisee and me kept entering the jail!!!! but nobody can beat ziqian's record haha! they are cruel to me! keep buying the places i want. i was getting super tired. went home for church. i slept in 242, almost didnt wake up when reaching interchange. i slept at home for 10min before going to church. i kept myself awake by reading a book in the mrt. Church! worship was led by Pastor Jenn.(:! sherry and i were saying her voice is nice! but that's not the point, it's about God! Communion! Sermon by Pastor Joshua. he talked about Psalm 37 and about 'Fret'. Trust, Delight, Be still and Cease anger! it's an important message tdy(: learnt alot. ended service, train ride with sherry. we were saying about how my second brother used to bully her hahaha. okay, then met jiayi&tiffany in jp. thanks for accompanying(:! second brother's friends are staying over, they are going for the 41+km run tmr. lol! mad people. oh and having wedding LUNCH tmr, yeah you didnt see wrongly, lunch, so weird. i prefer dinner though! everybody is sleeping now, i guess i wont sleep so early! 1am is always my mark.

behind the scenes, don't charge from the frontlines.

Being Meek doesnt mean being Weak, it's just controlling Strength within!
Hope that was once lost is standing renewed by God(:

2009-12-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SATHISH&JIALI(:

a child's belief broken, not believing in the magic of Christmas like what other kids do, in that child's life, santa claus did not exist.
that child was me.

tdy got tickles from xuanjun and peisee, tickles are the most torturing thing you can ever give me.got two bruises from them! peisee is the culprit of causing the bruise on my left knee which is so painful! haha. well, but at least they entertained me. was so tired after playing twister, *shake head, getting old! played guitar and sang some songs with peisee while xj used my com. tonight isnt a good night, it's just sudden boredom and other feelings. having gb drill practice+church. goodbye(:

CHUAJIAYI is finally back from her camp(:

Your grace is enough for me(:

2009-12-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

it's great to have seniors back(: sheridin and xueyi came to help us with our fancy drill tdy! we've done the front part of our fancy drill. after that went to mac to have lunch with 3 hilarious people: ziqian, hwaxiang and peisee. they can really make me laugh. esp.hwaxiang. her loud voice disturbed the table beside us. hahaha, and her "real" accent. rent dvds to my house. hwaxiang was screaming away. haha! we watched final destination and the devil wears prada. oh we had fun whacking her with the cushions too! and peisee actually slap her butt yet she thought it was me, then ziqian said it was her. i think hx still thinks it's zq that did it. hahaaaa! we made alot of noise tdy! alright, "grandma" is back(: two more days and cjy is back. goodbye, having tuition tmr.(:

God is greater than that show! you're wrong.

2009-12-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

insurmountable.

Yay! Christmas in 25days(: less than that soon. went to play badminton with xuanjun and her bro, honghong. haha, honghong is forever irritating. although SOMETIMES cute and helpful. &there's this super adorable mixed-blood boy who came and "snatch" our racket. refusing to return, screaming his head off. but suddenly he became an angel, he played with us and return us the racket after that. honghong was jealous! hahaha. piggyback honghong, he's heavy for a 5 year old, lucky i got the strength to carry him. i'll upload some pictures on FB(: yongyong came, and she's someone to entertain honghong, while xj and i can finally play peacefully. haha! honghong actually had a motive: treat from yong2! yong2 bought drinks for us, thanks(: okay then, went home! tmr having GB FD practice, alright goodbye(:

speechlesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

no eyes has seen, no ears has heard, no heart could fully know,
how wonderful, how beautiful You are(:

2009-11-30T23:40:00.001+08:00

hawthorn

hey! not planning to blog actually. but since i'm online, so why not. went to jb tdy with mum and her friend. was feeling so bored during the ride there! once we reached city square, that's when my eyes lit up haha! spent alot of kachings! die... next few weeks no spending! until Christmas(: can't wait for it to come actually! i thought of what to buy for bestfriend and others already haha. i can't sleep now... "grandma" typed me a humorous lullaby yesterday! haha, next time cannot tell her i can't sleep. lol! going for badminton with xuanjun,yongyong&chinleng tmr(: tmr's the first of december, the last month of 2009.

something, in Tuesdays with Morrie, left me thinking...
i guess i'm really afraid to say out.
jiayi would probably know what i'm talking about.

Jiayi and Crystal had gone to obs! and "grandma" went to Bintan! hope they are fine(: do takecare! it feels weird not to talk to jiayi! 4more days until she's back.

i can thank God endlessly(: God is Love!

2009-11-29T22:14:00.001+08:00

faith.

hey! went out with jiayi tdy(: before that, we went to jp with kryst to make kryst's mum's birthday cake. haha, yeah and both of us went off after making the cake. jiayi had been enduring my indecisive thoughts tdy! hahaaaa. she bought her siblings' presents and i bought a dress for a wedding next week. sg is getting so warm. she's going to obs tmr and nobody is going to listen to my personal stuffs for 5days! haha, of course her importance in my life is not because of that only. right??? going jb with mum tmr! which means shopping hahaaaa. probably going to get shoes there. alright, goodbye(: got to do work.

you are not just waves, you are part of the ocean.

to know the true meaning of praise, All i need is You Lord.(:

2009-11-29T01:06:00.001+08:00

sunny-side up!

(blogging based on 28/11/09)
hey! went to watch Mulan with my cg and church friends at vivo(:! it's a super duper nice show! alright to me it's a great show. i seriously dont mind watching it again. it's thrilling, touching and funny too! haha see, 3-in-1 package. admire the friendship and love they have(: should go and watch it! although it's quite draggy, 2hours. but the plot is organised and awesome. except for one part! okay enough, go and watch it(: i probably would grab someone and watch it again! haha.
Headed to church by bus 145. had cg, we did worship in a different way tdy! chonghao led us with one song and then out we went(: soaking time(: or sam wong calls it solitude time. okay i really like this(: had visions and word from God, i like spending time alone with God. went back to cell room after 20minutes or so. shared and planning for next week's event where p6s come again.
Went off earlier for ushering. our usher team has initiative haha. and joshua is being so hilarious tdy! we kept joking lol. we laughed for the whole service, oops...and brenda joined us too. tdy seems to be so free cos' our team is finally not on duty for communion. Sermon by pastor jennifer(:! she finally came back after having chicken pox. she talked about A man of Praise(Psalm 103). pastor jenn asked the guys to read the odd number verses and the girls to read the even number verses. was super duper funny! had a great laugh over it, the guys were shouting and echo-ing hahaha. pastor jenn kept joking about it and making new jokes. it's always interesting with her(: Talking about Praise is really meaningful. Your praise is not built in times of difficulty but tested and is most necessary in those times. Your praise is built in good times. then wrote down things that you want to praise God for. and we voiced it out&praise Him(: service was different too, after sermon, pastor jenn led us 3 songs(: yeah super high! love it!(: once again it's an awesome time spent with God(: alright and dinner with cg, leonard was telling us jokes and he totally entertained us! chonghao kept disturbing me! argh! haha. i finally can eat my fu yong dan with rice!!!!!!(thumbs up!) okay trained home with sherry wong! talked about some stuffs. goodbye.(:

chuajiayi! 18th dec! hahahaha.

thank you to someone for a message!

O come let us adore him,
For He alone is worthy,
Christ the Lord(:

2009-11-27T15:40:00.005+08:00

lessons of Death...

...lessons of Death...that's right! I read Tuesdays with Morrie from page1 to page 192. i did not skip! Morrie is an inspiring old man, yes he not only touched Mitch but me and much more others in the whole wide world. Fourteen different lessons about life and death. it's great to think death as a positive thing. Money don't buy happiness, Death ends a life not a relationship, Learn to die and you will learn to live and most importantly, Love or perish(: ohoh and i like the part on forgiveness, you not only need to forgive others but you have to forgive yourself. we are drowned with regrets, so we should not wait until the last day to say goodbye, i'm sorry and thank you.

i went swimming just now with "grandma" at 9am! refreshing! finally i've put my toehair into the pool. havent been swimming for 3-4months? i can't remember the last time i step into a pool. alright, swam 8/16 laps, you decide. noticed my leg havent recovered yet, nevermind. ate lunch at the coffee shop near pioneer mrt station. and chat alot with that grandma throughout the whole morning. realised alot of things haha. and we were talking about old folks' home(no joke). we wouldnt know what is laid for us in front, just keep walking in faith with God(:
waited for her bus to come and went home! completed my book review(: going for dinner with family and relatives later(:

let's talk about something...
Rescue lines of lifts:
when i read the notice on the lift's pillar(?), do you call that pillar? wall? uh nevermind. It wrote, "in case of emergency, call this number:1800 something something" and i thought about alot of things...
Helpline 1: That number.
can't they think of something more effective?! my hp is _____ and ______ always gets out of reach meaning no reception. which means! how am i suppose to call that number if the lift broke down. and i was thinking of typing the number to show the people outside but what if you stuck in between, let's say between 3rd and 4th storey. what to do?
Helpline 2: The yellow bell.
it actually spells mischief and hopeless. press it for all you want, people would be irritated. they would think it's some idiotic kid trying to "test" out in case of emergency. so it's out it's out! maybe wait for an hour?
Helpline 3: Look at the people around you in the lift.
you know the people who steals your breath in the lift??? imagine, a lady with a sharp shreiking voice: "HELP HELP HELP!" and a boy crying as loud as he could. and worse of all a teenager listening to his mp3, ignoring the whole situation. who would you choose to help you? well, i'm thinking in a worse situation. well maybe they could make some noise for people to notice, fair enough.
Helpline 4: JUMP!
so that it could reach level 3. but what if the wire SNAP!
-End-

Love your enemies as yourself(:

brilliant(go and hear if you havent heard)-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVbuIZ-5-8o&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUij8FCg0z8

2009-11-26T17:20:00.003+08:00

slipshod bang bang.

i didn't know someone like you would have feelings too, guess i did not know you well too, wahaha(: << evil laughter

the sun shone on my butt tdy, had a great sleep(finally). although i slept late last night, i woke up LATE today! read books, and waited for mum and bro to come back from a swim. CANT GO argh cos of the day of the month. bro and i had a great time laughing over some stuffs, esp. on eng grammar. went for a haircut with mum, came back first and she's still there. she's going to dye purple black(?) weird colour. browse through some of the sec4s prom night albums, gorgeous ladies and smart young men i see(: wonder if we would have prom next year. haha, alright goodbye, time to do work again!(:

people are leaving sg! (nah i'm not jealous)
Rachel&Yangyi&any other people takecare of yourselves(:

God fills the emptiness inside, not cover up for you.

2009-11-25T14:40:00.002+08:00

Hackneyed routine.

go around and view your friends' blogs or any random blog. how many of them actually wrote "I AM HAPPY". or probably it's just me? i happened to browse through several blogs, seeing those puzzled feelings and overwhelming sadness, well i probably only saw one or two blogs with a positive mindset. and someone chatted with me, she isnt feeling good too. well, things cant always be perfectly fine for me too. but now now, I'M REALLY GLAD! somehow i like doing homework, it makes me not think about other things, although sometimes it's frustrating that you can't get the answer. i'm planning to finish Tuesdays with Morrie tonight and start on a new book, Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult. done with SS and moving on to Eng and Emath later on. goodbye(:

Schedule(:
For my reference only!
26Nov: HA day
27Nov: Revision(Amath)
28Nov: Church(:
29Nov: FREE(:
30Nov: HA day
1Dec: HA day
2Dec: Revision(Chem)
3Dec: HA day
4Dec: HA day;Jiali's&Sathish's birthday
5Dec: Church(:
6Dec: FREE(:;Peisee's&Seemin's&Shevaun's birthday
7Dec: 2H BBQ!
8Dec: 2H BBQ!
9Dec: GB Flag day!
10Dec: Chemworkshop@NUS;Yangyi's birthday
11Dec: Chemworkshop@NUS
12Dec: Church(:
13Dec: Revision(Bio)
14Dec: HA day
15Dec: 3I outing!
16Dec: Revision(Phy)
17Dec: Revision(Bio);Diyanah's birthday
18Dec: Revision(Emath)
19Dec: Church(:
20Dec: FREE(:;Khadijah's birthday
21Dec: GB chalet
22Dec: GB chalet
23Dec: GB chalet
24Dec: Revision(Phy)+Dental
25Dec: Christmas!
26Dec: Church(:
27Dec: Revision(ALL)
28Dec: Church camp!
29Dec: Church camp!
30Dec: Church camp!
31Dec: Church camp!

I surrender my hopes, my ambitions and my plans to You, Lord(:

2009-11-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

(based on 24thNov)
End of school days for 2009. suddenly felt empty, what to do during the next whole month? drown myself with books and holiday assignments? or in for some fun. Had physics lessons tdy. experiment on naphthalene. i'm enjoying physics lessons now(: mr heng met us for awhile to return our assignments. waited for jiayi and headed to jp with her and kryst while xj went home. bought their camp stuffs and kryst went home. cjy accompanied me to have my lunch, it's great to chat with her! took a one hour nap&went for dental with mum.braces are pink now(: mum confused me with chi math and eng math. well, i'm still right about the numbers! went to jp and rent two books&bought dinner. and it's dinner time+ homeworking time.

why complain about having little allowance. when you are left with a few friends, that's when you start worrying.

there's a saying that goes: if there's a will, there's a way.
Firstly, to me, God's will is the way(:
Secondly, i've done my amath holiday assignment(:
Lastly, i'm finishing Tuesdays with Morrie(:

2009-11-23T22:38:00.003+08:00

GB FUN CAMP 2009! FRIENDS(:
9th coy rocks your socks! lovethem! the girls in the house...

CAUTION: BEWARE OF THE LONG POST AHEAD...
the year end camp for GB finally met us on 21stNov(: this is when we should be done with planning and execute it. Met in school at 8am. Great to see our seniors back(:! that's the best part! journey to GB&BB campsite was quite fast. Reached there and went to our groups. Decided on our group name: CHINGU(:! it's Friends in Korean. the other two groups are: 7KAWANS & AMIGO. came up with these names based on our camp theme: FRIENDS(: Kicking off with games! we went in search for friendship bands(which i'm still wearing it now) haha! my group found 11? they camouflage the bands! i chose the blue one(: cos my group didnt found the green one, or else...you know! okay, then we found out sheridin's talent through the forfeit of hoola-hoop-ing! haha. Check-in to our dorms. then had lunch, practically wiping out my group's food! haha. don't know why i'm so hungry. Station games was next(: we did 5 out of 6 stations. first was rachel's, shaving the balloon! hahaha,was so funny. second was shevaun's, the passing of rubberband then the one where our mouths are taped(ms ang said we look better that way!) then ms ang's station where we probably got dirty! with the strings inside our shirts. haha, last station was jenny's. the twister and the surprise of pouring a pail of water mix with dont know what on us. haha, then helped to clear up. Singspiration led by the Admin group(xinhua, peisee,me and weilin). Message 1 by mdm michelle(: about best friends and understanding our temperament. i'm an extrovert! Outdoor cooking competition! we had some coupons to exchange food! we successfully cooked two bowls of rice, luncheon meat, sausage, lettuce, many bowls of instant noodles and somemore. cleaning up was hard! alright then shower time! our group went first, quite rush for us as we are the group on duty for the cleaning. anyway we only had 20min per group to bathe! Workshop 1 by ms lee on conflict management. i'm a person that is compromising and cooperating. haha, go and find out what it is. supper! and went to our dorms to sleep. peisee and i shared a bed. sorry about taking up your space haha!
Day 2:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MINHUI(((((((:!

PT to freshen up. we move our mouths not body! haha, breakfast and then QT with mindy. Singspiration by rachel&brigitte. Message 2 by mdm michelle(: about Jesus as a friend to all of us(: our theme verse: John 15:13! Recruitment planning! glad that we came up with some ideas already(: Lunch was delicious(: Games! the part where we all get dirty and wet. played the sliding game and the washing machine game. we ended up pushing everyone into the mat filled with water, detergent and other things. haha. then played with water bombs. our group's hoola hoop was so funny!!!! hahaha. and then Tent-pitching! learnt how to tie different knots and went out to pitch the tents! surprise for minhui&xinhua! mindy told us to write newyear wishes for GB(actually it's for minhui&xinhua) haha, but they both suspected something. but minhui was so shocked when we surprised her. cake came! and celebrated for them! dinner and then bathing time! Workshop2 by the hilarious ms ang! she kept making us laugh! did on anger management. she asked us to choose something and act it out. had a great laugh over it! esp. group 2's wear they act as the lioness. hwaxiang's and jiachyi's make me laugh like mad. Special night, the prep was funny! cos we kept saying verses when other groups walk pass. and ms lee actually believed we are doing that for special night. haha. Group performances, we did great(: the rest too(:! and then the officers'. they did a photo slideshow. had many laughters over the photos and our commercial breaks. haha! great to look at our happy faces! i like our camp tee! designed by our birthday girl, bobhua(: supper! and we spent the whole night in the tents! waited for 12midnight to sing xinhua a birthday song! shared the tent with huishi, rachel and sheena(biantai girl). wahaha. rachel and i slept at around 1+am after talking about SPA. woke up at 2+am cos ants infested our tent! kept sweeping them off. and we spend the whole night talking about how to get rid of them and trying to escape to the canteen to sleep. in the end we gave up and slept with the ants, but kept waking up. i don't remember sleeping peacefully.the ants' bites still havent fade off. they only bite on my right leg. but the whole body was so itchy! i probably dislike ants now!!!!
Day 3:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, XINHUA(((((((:!

woke up at 6am to go off for school with jenny&seemin ate cereal, kindly prepared by mindy(:. talked while eating. mdm pamela drove us to the mrt station at 7am. trained back and took 172 from cck to westwood. met yong2 and ainul on the bus. the 3 of us slept and yong2 woke us up when reaching westwood. we reached at around 8.30am. just in time! phy lesson, did on notes and then experiment! almost fell asleep, lucky there's experiment to keep me awake! did on the pendulum thingy but with ruler. this is the first time i talked to mr chor for so long lol! he was telling me to curve my graph more, then he will say:"yes, much nicer" haha, so cute right! okay, after phy ate at fico pizza hut with kryst,xj,yong2 and kohsiong. chat and chat, laughing at the way yong2 eat. kryst and xj went to lot1 to meet people and the 3 of us went back to sch to chat. haha shared alot of craps and keep laughing. then yong2 left for cca. kohsiong and i talked about some random things while waiting for kryst&xj to come back. and they were back! homed(: chat on the hp for awhile and slept!!!! having flu now! cannot take it, the tap can't be turned off!

this camp wouldnt had been successful and really fun without...
OFFICERS(:-thanks mindy,minhui,mdm pamela,mdm michelle,mdm peilin,peiqi,ms ang and ms lee for guiding us and making sure we are safe! and sharing with us different things about Friends(:
ADMIN IC(:-told you i love them!(:
GAMES IC(:-thanks for making the games fun-filled and letting us to bond(:
LOGISTICS IC(:-thanks for preparing the things(:
SENIORS(:-thanks for coming and entertaining us, giving us the feel of the close bond once again! enjoyed having you all with us(:!
THE AWESOME PEOPLE OF CHINGU(:
-Sheridin
the ever-so caring and on task senior(: great to have her back!
-Peisee
the adorable and understanding one(: my sleeping partner BOBSY!
-Ziqian
the "quiet" and yet knowing what we are doing(: willing to help us always!
-Jeslin
-Shevaun
the hyper one(: need i say more? she sure brighten up our day!
-Cherrie
the funny one(: haha, welcome back penguin!
-Felicia
the cool and one with wisdom(: glad to have you back too!
-Damaris
the blur and entertaining one(: she doesnt feel weird with us;good thing!
-Abigail
me(: haha.
CHEER(sheridin came up with this):
Chingu chingu chingu chingu!
dagu, ergu, sangu, xiaogu,
DA JIA YI QI CHINGU!

2009-11-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

IN CAMP, FROM 21ST TO 23RD!:D

2009-11-18T21:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YONGJIE!((((:

Third week(:;Official last day!
hey, i enjoyed this week the most(: filled with laughters. on mon, the thing that made me laugh my head off is Crystal's precious "tutu" kueh, she pronounce wrongly, guess it if you want? haha. thanks rach,psm,xj&kryst for accompanying me to queensway to settle the camp tee. yesterday, the most hilarious thing is that kryst,me and jenny stood outside of class before eng lesson(during recess), telling people that ms fong is already inside and you are late like us, so have to stand outside. hahaha, looking at their responses, we had a great big laugh together as a whole class. esp.keilin and the 4malay girls' responses! hahaha. tdy's funny thing was with the usual people,yong2+kryst+kohsiong+kenneth, after AEM(: shared jokes and many other things, picking eng names for each other. hahaha! school had been okay, mon was tiring, tues had chem SPA. Mr heng had become patient and more considerate, wonder what's wrong with him? haha, he had made our lives easier and also made his AM lessons more interesting. Tdy marks the end of the third week of extra lessons and the last lesson for bio AEM. we had presentation for AEM tdy. overall, i think my group did well although it's quite long, thanks yong2&kryst&miss lee yi chuan(: our "last" dinner in SP after presentation.i kinda dont bear to leave this course, maybe cos of the food wahaha, kidding, it's like a daily routine, every week going to SP and taking this course. alright, tmr going to watch 2012(:

Your almighty hands hold on tight onto mine.

2009-11-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

Girls'Brigade&church(:
this was it, i sealed something. i hope i wont regret. i'm really really stress and vex over lots of things. i cant wait to let next week pass...cant take it anymore! alright fine, i'm going trust God(: had GB(like finally for me), singspiration with sec1s could be so funny, jeslin would agree right? haha, rachel and i were being so crazy. devotion and camp planning were next. i love my admin group! although it can be so irritating that we are doing so many things, it's fun when you are crapping with them and seeing the completed work, it puts a big smile on your face. drills, learnt commanding and taught the sec1s. Games, played indian poker! and dismissal. lunch with rachel&lihua(: Church, did hospitatlity! our cell enjoy doing this very much. haha, kept joking with sam lo and sam wong. service, worship spoke to me alot. sermon, pastor vic shared about his life story, it hit me very hard, real hard. i've been through the same feeling. till now, i cant get over it. the hardest, longest cries. the pain, hurt inside. the fear, worry hit constantly. but Psalm 139:1-10, God spoke to me. He's pursuing me! i'm really glad i have a heavenly Father that will keep me safe in His arms(: sometimes, i tend to forget He actually exists everywhere, even right in my heart. sometimes, He had to wait for very long before i ever started a prayer "Dear God,...." sometimes, i'm feeling very down and yet i dont think of Him. when He's the one that exists everywhere, He's the one that speaks through my heart, He's the one that thinks of me all the time, He's the one willing to sacrifice anything, He's the one that surprises/calms/shelters/is mysterious. and many more. Dinner with cell(: and train with Sherry(: haha, cant forget the memories we had overseas with our brothers. sidetrack awhile....i cant forget late nights, talking to you on the phone, i really cant. i remember we would fall asleep together leaving the phone on,and your mum would put down the phone or i would hang up in the morning. i dont care if you read this or not? whether you think it's you or not. but just want to say when i spoke to you on the phone again, i will remember those times. nevermind... i missed out the goodness of every friendship...except for one that i will want to keep now and forever. alright, got to go to kick some homework butts. lol! kidding, goodbye(:

Everything will glow in Your glory(:

it's a promise to you, not to walk away in the hard times.

2009-11-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

End of second week;quite a joyful day!(:
Just came back from AEM. such a great feeling when you get full marks for the aem test haha. just because all the questions were the same as the self-test revision questions. i'm so glad i spent 2hours re-do-ing the revision and practically memorising all the answers haha! most of us got full marks anyway! well done aem students(: we had revision before that anyway, potassium hydroxide had been really nice to us(: maybe because she's in-charge of us. aem is left with one last oral presentation and it's over! okay let's talk about the week? mainly the highlights or do you call them the lowlights? Tuesday, AEM, last lesson with xu weijun. good thing?=X but he was kinda kind on the last lesson. Wednesday, AEM+Chem mock SPA. the "clever" me went to watch "how to use a pipette on youtube" to prepare for SPA lollll! AEM used computer to generate different things, which is kinda cool as it's a different approach. Thursday, Physics SPA, did wrongly at first but managed to change it on time. yeah and today had AEM(as explained above), Lit, miss lee showed us a short video, i almost cried! there's this twirl of feelings inside. still wondering why the boy would rather die, or maybe he didnt know that he's going to die?! but it's in a peaceful way. Go watch it if you want, it's called "Replay" but search for the right one? it's an animation. alright, had been sleeping at 1+am everyday, rushing powerpoints, settling GB things, doing homework, so tired!!!!! okay goodbye(:

Changed my blog song yesterday, GB girls this is one of the camp songs, so do learn it(: it's actually for someone haha, she will know who she is.

Jesus You're my bestfriend(:
John 15:13

2009-11-09T18:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MISS CERENNA NG((((:!
thanks for your wish for us haha!

Second Week;Tough day!
SS, can i not talk about it? lol... Amath was alright, starting to like amath more i guess? Recess ate spaghetti(yay, finally no canteen mee!), thanks to someone(: emath did on 6.4, emath is now becoming the one that is on a train, more like an express train. phy did on moment of force experiment, didnt got it at first? bio SPA for the last two periods, the experiment was easy and at the same time easy to make mistakes. i think 2 or 3 marks gone. after school, kept joking with xuanjun. and mac with xj,kryst, huijia and chinleng. haha, kept coming up with funny jokes, esp the bus ride to jp was so funny! practically laughing at everything we see. digress for a moment: i'm getting too stressed! sleeptalking had become one of my daily routine. i'm probably locking my blog soon. soon when? i dont know. yeah, tmr there's aem and i havent finish the work given! the new lecturer is kinda cruel to throw us into the deep waters without teaching us how to swim, get it? there's one week and 4more days left till revision really starts. i made a promise to myself today, i'm not going to leave the table unless i finish studying at least one topic a day from "holidays" onwards. alright got to go(:

loggerheads! this word came to my mind yesterday haha.

Everyday a brand new chance to say,
Jesus You are the only way,
my Saviour, my Saviour lives!(:

2009-11-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

Last day of the First week(:
I'm blogging based on 6/11/2009.
Lessons arent that horrible. Lit today was exceptionally quiet, what's happening to us?! haha, usually it would be so noisy. it's so contradicting today, miss lee would ask us to keep quiet last time and tdy she actually asked us to open our mouth and talk during group discussion! i think my group(rebecca,germane,huaiqian&lewis) was the one making the most noise haha! and also selina's grp at the back. haha, we were joking about our answers. lol! chem ms ng was furious with our class but her words make sense. she isnt the one taking o level and she didnt force us to come for lessons. since we are there, we should learn and enjoy at the same time. Recess had been eating the food from the noodle stall. Eng was the last two periods for the day, miss lee took us, we felt that her teaching was clear actually. although it's slow but we actually learnt something. picking up all the key words, i didnt know we could find the exact same words in the passage, well i just read as a whole lol! overall this english thing is beneficial to all of us. after sch went to chem lab, did bio mock SPA again and practise for our SPA. and went to the canteen for camp planning with peisee,xinhua,ziqian and weilin. haha, secrets!!!! lol, almost done with planning! headed to jp to buy jeslin's present. haha, was so funny on our way there and the whole walking around jp. we called each other 'BOB', there's Bobigail, Bobhua, Bobsee/Bobsy&Bobqian. hahaha, was super funny! kept making a fool out of ourselves. was laughing away at the things we thought of. xinhua and i kept thinking and saying the same things. had a great afternoon with them!(: homed, i'm not that tired now! there's AEM tomorrow, but i guess my mind would be in GB, haha. dont wanna miss the fun with them.

hey, sometimes i feel the connection within us, when you're hurt, i can feel it too but of course it's not as much as yours. takecare alright! anything sms me(:

Silence depicts Deep thinking.

Saying again,
You give and take away, but my heart will choose to say Lord, Blessed be Your name!(:

2009-11-04T17:04:00.001+08:00

OWL!
3weeks of lessons
-the first week
it's only the first week and there are tons of homework, tons of project&planning, tons of SPA tests&mocks, tons of tests, tons of everything. but it's also tons of fun at times.
mon: as usual, we enjoyed ss(: haha, mdm rozi is forever so funny and her examples are good. 3i had been making jokes and answering questions in a "creative" way. haha, amath started on matrices, pretty much like this topic. i remembered this girl who was late from 1f dashed into our lesson and said"sorry i'm late" haha and mr heng said "WRONG CLASS!" and she dashed out again. these few days, recess at 10 and most importantly, we had recess with 2h girls(: and emath started on properties of circle. we had a mock phy SPA without prior notice but a repeated experiment. bio went through SPA criteria, first lesson with ms goh sok fern anyway and she said she cannot take it already. our class too quiet lol!
tues: chem we did on energy change of reaction, a new topic. ss did on new topic, the last topic for the year(: haha, and again i like ss lessons! eng, teachers will take turns to have eng lessons with us based on the schedule and speciality on different topics. miss nithiya came in first, did on topic sentence& controlling idea. she's another teacher that said we are dead fishes. haha. amath continued and bio did mock SPA, which was horribly done. and AEM after school, driven to do our project soon(:
wed(today): stated by yong2, me and her did "ku gong" for ms ng hahaha. but good to skip first part of assembly, haha. phy did another mock SPA, different experiment, but this one seems to be easier. bio went through yesterday's mock SPA, i think ms goh totally want to puke blood. haha. she said she bang the wall last night lol! after she went through, it's of course, much clearer. her sarcasm is unique eh? saying that the boy's lab is like a war and ours is like a calm and peaceful place. lol! chinese had combine class with 3h chi students in the ava with mr chiam(: he's humourous!!! haha, i kinda enjoy his lesson tdy and the way he explain things may be fast but he is patient with us and joke with us. did on chengyu&do the chengyu puzzle. haha, had lots of laughters. we learnt new words from mr chiam's dictionary like fei-lo(failure-F9) and the sounds "gua gua gua" made by a crow. haha! hope that next lesson would be him again! chem did quiz and did more on QA. and ending of the day with emath, continued on the chap. everyday learn 3properties? lol. ljs with xj and kryst(: oh and had a long chat with yong2,jenny,kohsiong and kenneth first then shuyun while waiting for kryst to eat lunch haha. tdy's weather is weird. suddenly it starts raining "cats&dogs" then "rats&worms" and then clear air. lollll, it's just a stupid analogy. haha. alright goodbye time to study&do homework.

God, i'll live for you(:

2009-11-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

i notice i havent been wishing people happy birthday on my blog.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NADIA:D!(30thOct)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENNY:D!(31stOct)
at least i did wish them by sms! haha.

1st November started off great with 6hours of exercising(: went to the gym with yongyong. spent 30minutes burning off calories. haha! $1.50 is worth it! then went to play badminton! i like playing badminton excluding the picking up part. haha, enjoy the continuous hitting with yongyong. then crystal came to find us. went up to find xuanjun&her brother. got down again & played. cryst went to find her parents. played many rounds& you'll get exhausted after being chased by a 5year old kid! okay loser right? you try! yongyong was scaring honghong all the way haha. honghong got to know a new friend eh? hmm he throws a temper at times but used to it already. i remembered fighting with him last time when i went to xj's house. haha, but it's totally funny. he can be irritating and fun. got a frightening experience after playing cos of something. only the four of us know! maybe plus someone else. haha. and we went home after struggling for a moment. yong2 and i went to jp to buy our dinner. homed and finally rest my legs! just want to say, sometimes people dont use their brains right?! lol, alright got it you use your mouth to talk not brain. but think think think first! 3weeks of school starts tomorrow.(:

Lord, Your kindness leads me to repentance, Your goodness draws me to Your side, Your mercy calls me to be like You, Your favour is my delight.

2009-10-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tautology.
Bio Aem(:
changed of teachers. Mr.Xu taught us tdy, he's clearer than the previous one although it's not that detailed but something gets into our heads. spent the waiting time of the experiments taking photos too. sometimes it's not your camera skills that is good, it's the camera that's equipped to producing a great image. haha, i took two nice pictures tdy(: love them, cryst send me soon! 3hours of every experiment. Yongyong was exceptionally quiet&Seahcheng joined us for lunch(: it's been a long time since we last had a good chat about personal things&jokes. i'm still surviving in bio aem! wahaha.
Church(:
Cell was first, we had 6 p6s coming to our cell!(: prepared and chat around first while waiting for them. when they came in, they made our heart melt!!!!! so cute(: hahaha, they must be thinking our cell is made up of crazy people. Sherman, the most adorable young fellow;sherry's fav.;AJ's new crush! David Portsomething, a cool and smart chap;don't know which country he comes from;he's handsome^^, too bad too young, haha joking!;next leonard to be(joker)! Abel, a quiet guy;open-minded! Dave, blur kid;adorable too! Reo Neo,such a unique name right!!!!!!! he makes all of us go GAGA!;our main star for our cell tdy!;everything is like REO NEO! Joshua, leonard's junior;another quiet one! haha, did you notice, all guys! lol, they were all so enthusiastic not really shy. esp.David,Sherman&Reo were enjoying themselves and bonding with us already. hahaha, had a great laugh with them. played C-E-L-L&the bag game.(: got to know them better.
Service next! Had ushering&communion(: ushering is always funnnnn! and brenda always talk to me when i'm doing duty for worship at the back door. hahaha. did offering and counting for communion! Surrender my ambitions&dreams to God during communion(: felt refreshed! Sermon was about Heart of Compassion!(: Psalm 36! Love as itself, not for other things. Seeing beyong the wicked. Focusing on God's character. Passing it on. Heart of reaching out precedes Heart of compassion!talk more about it next time. alright and dinner was all about laughing like mad!!!!!!! leonard and sherry was making us laugh!!! hahaha, tell you their jokes next time. super duper hilarious! YOOs ROCKS(: and we got our very own YOOs Badge(:! okay goodbye!

Everyday, i awaken my praise(:

2009-10-30T12:18:00.000+08:00

i remembered having many dreams from 12midnight-8am.sweet dreams and nightmares. but not to my surprise, i had forgotten what i've dreamt of. 8am-10am i was thinking about my dreams for the first part of that timing. and i fell asleep again.i had another dream and again, i forgot what it was. those dreams may not remain in my mind but the feelings i had remained in my heart somehow. you wake up with fear or joy according to your dreams right? i do. i felt awesome and yet there's a tinge of sadness somewhere. leaving to God to fill my heart(: there are alot of "i"s in this post but well, this is my blog which means personal recount which means there will be a lot of the word "i". but sometimes i dont like blogging in this way. my life isnt all about myself. there's God, chuajiayi, mum, two brothers, friends, relatives, teachers, second home, hamster and many more. you may think no one understands you but think about it, arent we alike? i may think you do not understand mine too. so don't complain. there's something different, i know God &jiayi is there so i'm not going to say that no one actually understands. ultimately, God truly search my heart, more than i would know about myself, more than i thought what things should be like, what He would be like, more than what i'm going to accept, more than things that are placed in front of me. over these years, He comforted me time and time again in different ways but mostly through people. that day someone prayed for me she sensed something deep down in my heart, that brokeness. and someone else who promised that she will be always there for me. reading back through my life, i probably spent most of the time thinking about the past and not the future. i regretted many things, i saw myself as a person that could not get out from the mental torture and unwilling to let go. but now as in now and the future, when i look back the second time, i want to see myself as a person that work hard enough and think about God's greatness and think about the wonderful things instead. got to be strong in Christ. i'm reflecting. i'm going to jp for a walk, what a good choice.but i just need a walk, okay goodbye(:

Thank God for pouring in joy and love when things go wrong.

this is the nicest poem i've ever seen(:

God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.

But God has promised strength for the day,
rest for the labor, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.

-Kristone

2009-10-29T21:47:00.003+08:00

"Last" day of school!(:
it marks the ending of our school term&the kicking off of our 3weeks of lessons. gonna work extremely hard during this period of time. 2months, i dont believe i wont make full use of it! maybe a couple of dates for friends,2h and 3I. 2h stayover will be on the 7th-8thDec. and 3I's outing will be on the 15thDec. and other events from GB and school surrounds my calendar! this day, it's our last PE lesson for year2009. haha, played badminton like mad! with yong2,xj,shuyun&jenny. we were so reluctant to put the badminton racket down. tdy was OCU with 3I(: cleaning the windows with xuanjun&crystal. haha, and just chat our way through. Ever seen mr heng cleaning the classroom walls and washing our rags for us in a pail of dirty water?! haha, yes 3I saw that. seeing another side of him wasnt that bad. he wash the rags like he is washing clothes!!! hahaha. then he still joke where's the board? lol! haha, yeah he's actually a caring teacher except he shows it in pretty much the wrong way like torturing us for amath tests. haha. had lunch&GB camp planning with peisee and ziqian came along. had a great laugh with them(: i know my reasons why i want to be a doctor and many other things came to my mind. there were many "actuallys" and "yets". anyway i have irritating people in my class hahaha! kidding, the two idiots that keep calling me dinah tuna chua sirui. lol! but they can be very funny too. alright tmr is AEM again. i only like doing experiments, lectures are the "no-no"s, but trying not to sleep! i must keep this promise to myself, i must survive AEM with a high grade& not to sleep!

Touch&Go.

God's presence is important in my life(:

2009-10-27T19:14:00.001+08:00

these few days havent been onlining as my com got unplug for a moment.
sat had church, the sermon topic was meaningful, "the Heart of Praying".
sunday i was down with fever and headache after a trip to IMM with cryst. school had been alright for ytd and tdy. ytd we went to Bodyworlds, main highlight of the day. ms ng,ms soo&ms goh went with the 35 of us(: ms ng finally saw our true colours in the bus eh? haha, was super noisy. and guess whose the loudest in the bus? jasper! all i could hear under the throbbing pain was jasper's voice. haha, and the constant nagging from ms ng as she sat beside me. but she entertained &took care of me for the whole trip. haha, thanks for that! we had a briefing from a guy there, basically ms ng was making me, kohsiong&kenneth laugh for the whole session. and seahcheng was entertaining us with his stupid acts haha.ms goh made some funny feedbacks to that person. then finally we could see the exhibition. we took a photo before entering, was with the 3 teachers+tzehearn. ms ng bought the photo in the end. first stop was the infants part. pity them!!! ms soo was like saying they "fa mei" ar? when it's the hair lol! teachers can be so funny! hmm then walked around with ms ng and we were like kids goign around stamping our books lol! i like the giraffe! okay i know we were suppose to see humans lol! yeah and i like the one with the chess. alright, it's pretty interesting except all the muscles seems like the same and the plastic makes it too fake. but it's cool to look on the inside. haha! then went to eat mac(i know i'm not suppose to!), we instantly won a free fries and 3rd&4th person free for cruise. haha! then went back to sci centre to walk around and see other exhibitions with yong2,cryst,xj&jenny. and homed at around 6+. tmr going sci centre again!!!!! more to visit! haha.
tdy was the last rev-up this year. ran road run. almost out of breath! had AEM after school @ SP again. i have not sleep during a session yet! yong2 slept tdy haha. well, quite interesting to find out the traits thingy. did some data experiment and tdy's session was quite fast. irritating people were sitting behind me! lol! talk so much nonsense&disturbing yong2&me! then trained home! read some cards when i reached home, touching(:

Words of Affirmation. Quality Time. Acts of Service. Gifts. Physical Touch.
Go and find out which is mine haha!
Thank God for the five love languages& everything You've given to me in my life(:, including family&friends(:

2009-10-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

Ikea(:
the word above shows where i spent my promotion day. wonder how the meeting went. went ikea with mum and second bro to get my study table and cabinet. bro and i were joking all the way through lolll! sometimes shopping with family could be so fun(: got my things and ate lunch. and headed down to car showrooms. i was getting so bored! only a few cars were attracting. homed after a few hours. slept in the car ride home. hmm, wanted to play badminton with xj at first but was about to rain. so didnt went in the end. watched tv, and realise i'm really fortunate. people are struggling to earn a living, can't i just do a good job in studying. all i have to do is to study. yes, not wait until next year to tell myself that o lvl is coming, right now it's already nearing day by day. next year is just going to fly pass, the next you know is the first paper you are taking. SPA test is coming in Nov. sometimes things can be so disappointing, when you know you had work hard and this is what you get. probably it's a wakeup call. well, it's time to flip the books already. even if now is just what you call a relaxing time. holidays will be so piled up with books and everything. everything now, studying is the priority and nothing else. but God and family is still the first, and not forgetting chuajiayi and some other close friends. a balance between all of them it's hard to achieve. but with the help of God, it will be done(: tmr is inter-ug games day and church(: yeah, GB girls play our best but most importantly, enjoy ourselves(:

Keep walking down with God.(:

i can't remember anything? only some memories are in my head. hmm, sometimes memories are hidden somewhere that you wouldnt bother to search.

2009-10-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks bestfriendchuajiayi for the keychain(: love it!

Night Safari(:
solitary. haha, i prefer just one word to explain certain things. i guess i dont have to spell everything out. having pe tdy was a weird thing. it's been long and tdy will be our last pe lesson as next week would be OCP. played captain's ball and it drained off most of my pancakes. i meant 3pancakes=breakfast=energy. yes. that probably explained the exhausted look on me for the whole day. got back our lit results&went through the poem. Lit is interesting when you start unveiling all the secrets behind the poems and start wondering how amazing the poet could translate things in many ways of like images and variation of words. alright let's skip. after school went to have my lunch at pizzahut with kryst,xuanjun,kohsiong&yongyong. bused home and bused back to school with shuyun(: met the rest of the students and headed to night safari! ms lim chiau li&mrs thio&mr oliver ong followed us. sat with shuyun on the bus and started joking and sharing about things. had to wait for more than half an hour for the entrance there to open at around 7pm. walked around with shuyun+tonglin+shuyan+another girl. took some pics and continued roaming around. and we finally got our tickets in our hands and headed for the first animal show at around 7.30pm. the show wasnt that spectacular as those i saw last time. however the speaker was so humorous and probably fangzhou finds her engaging as he was too noisy.anyway sat between shuyun and fangzhou during the show. haha, nice animals they have(: esp.the wolves! and hyenas.and after the show, took a tram ride around the area, had close encounters with the animals! and alighted to take the leopard trail. bats were very big, and the leopard was really nice. anyway the 3e students were saying that they want to be bitten by a bat so they can be batman. hahaha, anyway a 3d guy with shuyan were so entertaining as they were bickering. and the words were just so funny! yeah and we headed back by the tram again. it's a great experience with the IS students&some other students from sec2s&3s&also the teachers. ms lim and mr ong were also joking with us haha! kind of miss the way ms lim jokes with us at times. homed around 11pm. yeah, it's getting late now. although some might say the night is still young but i'm tired! there's no school tomorrow, i might be staying home? depends. alright goodbye(:

God's love,protection,care&peace(: nothing worth more than these.

2009-10-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

AEM GENE EXPLORER!(:
the craziest course started tdy. hmm before that we were in school having chinese lesson. haha, it was so funny! ms nai and darren ang's conversation is always so entertaining. got back our bio marks too, quite happy with it. left around 10.30am and went to the foyer. up the tiny bus we go! hahaha, reached SP and we were like sotongs! thank God for our two seniors there who are kind enough to bring us to T11 for our course! yeah, got our lab coats(: haha, we can keep it! pair up with yongyong(: and same bench with krystal&jiali. Introduction&making our accounts in SP. haha, it wasnt that bored. and chose our project titles. in the same group as yong2&kryst! and it was lunch time! ate fish&chips, very nice!!! and probably i was hungry so yong2 treat me like a food bin lol!!! went back and did experiment1. haha, yongyong and i did wrongly twice but we were still faster than kohsiong&kenneth hahaha! achievement? lol! yongyong was making me laugh the whole time there.& she's a great partner(: Change of staff in charge. and Expt2 started, or do you call that a lecture? hahaha. hmm learnt about gene in cells. super alot of terms!!! but at least i was listening to her the whole time! except probably one minute when i was dreaming about the time. anyway it's quite an interesting topic. Histones is probably one word i remembered clearly. we'll be learning this chapter next year i guess? having some many many many more lessons. next tues will be the next one. alright that's about it. and homed(:

Thank you xuanjun for your help in taking note of my ss results(:

Release hopes and visions, Lord(: i believe in You.

2009-10-20T19:45:00.002+08:00

Xuanjun's @ Marina Barrage(:
Great day spent there under the hot sun haha! as you can see here&at fb we spent most of the time snapping photos. Had our dinner at Swensens too(: once again, HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY, XUANJUN!(:

School @ school(:
Was more than a normal day in school. Results were out. my phy is the weakest of all the subjects. mrs chow says that "work hard on your weak subjects but work harder on your best subjects" during CME we watched the movie "Take the Leap" or "Take a Leap" cant remember, and it's nice! i want to watch the ending! ballroom dance(: &xuanjun came to use my com. yeah tomorrow's gonna be a better day, i hope? although we will be spending more than school hours in SP for our bio AEM workshop. please entertain me tomorrow! alright goodbye(:

kept posting the same question in my mind over and over again.
it seems right yet wrong yet confusing.

if there's a path without any ups&downs, means you're walking the wrong way.

God, hold my hand and walk together down this life journey.